Bet On Us

24. What Now?

15:00pm

Robert saying "I love you" to me, sounded so special to me. I decided to keep that in mind, because this will probably be the last time he says it.
Robert woke up from his hour nap, he fell asleep in my bed after doing the deed.
Robert yawned, rubbed his eyes, whilst looking up at me and smiling.

"Nice nap?" I asked
"Yes, it was. Your bed is comfy" Robert cried
"Don't make a habit out of it, I'll be moving soon" I answered

Robert looked at me with a frown, he went from a smile to a sad facial expression within minutes. He didn't seriously think, I was going to stay in London did he?
I'm still moving, with or without him.
I'm doing what's best for me.

"So you make love to me, then you ruin it all by saying you're still moving?" Robert asked

I couldn't believe the words that are coming out of his mouth, "make love to him?" It takes two to fucking tango.

"1) It takes two to tango. 2) I'm doing what's best for me. 3) Just because you said you loved me, did you really think that would've made me stay?" I replied
"Well yeah, I thought you'd only move if we weren't dating anymore. I guess that's over already" Robert answered
"How is it? You can move in with me" I cried
"Why would I want to move in with you? I have my whole life here, I have my family, my house, my job" Robert replied
"You can get a new job, sell your house, if you're driving you can see your family over the weekend. It isn't hard is it?" I asked
"It may not be hard for you, but it is for me. I'm not leaving my dad behind, just because you don't have a dad around, don't mean I have to leave mine" Robert cried

Is he fucking serious?!
"Just because you don't have a dad around", kept repeating it over and over in my head. My dad fucking passed away, that's why he isn't around.
The minute Robert said it, he knew he had pissed me off, he started to scowl around the room looking for his clothes.

"That's right, get the fuck out!" I shouted
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to say that" Robert cried
"You knew exactly what you fucking said! When your dad dies on you, you'll know exactly how it fucking feels you arsehole. But I pray to god, that won't happen" I replied

Robert put his trousers on, put on his shirt quickly, as well as, his socks and shoes.
He walked into the front room, I followed him whilst my arms were crossed.
Robert grabbed his keys, walked towards the door, before he walked out of the door, he turned around.

"If I leave now, I won't be coming back again, then we won't be dating anymore" Robert cried
I looked at him for what felt like hours, I remember him saying "I love you", that warm fuzzy feeling in my chest has now disappeared.
Robert walked out as well as, closing the door behind him.

I sat on the sofa, whilst bursting into tears, I grabbed tissues upon tissues.
I'm meant to be grieving, but instead I'm trying to pick up the pieces in mine and Robert's "relationship".
I felt like I'm the only one making the effort.
Effort goes both ways, not one!

16:30pm

I decided to ring Millie, because she's always there for me, when I need a shoulder to cry on.
-Beep Beep-
It went straight to voicemail.
That's odd, she always answers her phone.
I tried to ring Millie again.
-Beep Beep-
I had a bad feeling in my stomach, oh, no! Don't say something has happened to Millie.
I couldn't live with myself.