𝒐𝒓𝒑𝒉𝒊𝒄||Regulus Black

05

<Carmen>

living slow and letting it all flow

the nest is abandoned by its crow and the clouds are blushing with an afterglow

like the wind moves the sea and the sting leaves the bee

I blow the candles flame , aim for the heart and wait for the pain to tear me apart

[1978]

Hogwarts looked wonderful in the winter, frothy snowflakes twirled slowly in the air falling gracefully on the grounds, I thought nothing could be as beautiful as Beauxbatons in winter , but Hogwarts was much more elegant ,I often liked to take walks near the lake as it was much more peaceful, I even convinced Barty to come with me once though it was more of a threat than an offer because I knew how much he hated l'hiver

sometimes pandora came too, making tiny snowmen everywhere , and once or twice she forced us to help her ordering me and barty to make her awfully small snow balls and collect tiny rocks claiming she likes everything tiny and small , barty and I certainly exchanged a funny look at that before bursting out from laughter , but poor girl didn't understand she thought we were laughing at her so like that we spent the rest of the evening in guilt.

classes were not that bad , though Apparition was the hardest of them all, it felt like my organs are being rearranged and I hated it as much as I hated portkeys ,

I couldn't stick to a routine willingly, but I had midnight visits to the library and regular stargazing at the astronomy tower to keep me sane.

Studying with barty was surprisingly great , he was all fun and games but when it came to studies he immediately turns into this stone faced person and gets into study mode , of course that wasn't a problem because I too am the same.

I've gotten closer to evan , pandora and barty but regulus? I couldn't even hold a conversation with regulus as if it wasn't hard enough to hold a conversation with anyone in particular but he was the hardest of them all,

He was stern and dry all the time, his face reflected no emotion as blank as the night sky and the while his eyes looked empty and soulless most of the times , one couldn't ignore the sadness that swam within his sclera ,

A piece of parshment would show more emotion than that guy.

My thoughts immediately drifted into that first night in the bathroom , where he most certainly saw what I deeply wished I could hide ,

the dark mark

But I couldn't help it now , what's done is done, and it's not like I didn't know he had it too , because I surely did and if he chooses to tell a soul about me I would tell a million about him,

Now I couldn't deny I saw him every once in a while lurking in the shadows following me, trying to find more about me since that night, but what he didn't know is that; it's as useless as the dark lord or whatever that man calls himself, I myself don't know anything about my family history, I just know about mother's. he'll give up after a month or so,

For now , I focused on the stars alined together in a beautiful constellation,

the leo constellation

I didn't know much about astronomy but I deeply enjoyed stargazing, gives life meaning if you ask me .

3:33

The clock ticked urgently back in the common room each click spreading annoyingly in the whole room bouncing from one wall to another warning me to sleep, but how could one sleep with all those thoughts howling in my mind , overthinking is a curse and i'm not exempted .

Footsteps echoed behind me but I did not care to turn , if it's anyone they would simply turn back but if it's a threat then what a delight .

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