Actor(Oshi no ko)

Actor

Ruby shouted "Holy Crap!! What should we do, kill her?"

Aqua shook his head, trying to calm her down, "We won't be able to. The difference in our physical abilities is too big."

As Aqua spoke, he was hit with a sudden wave of déjà vu, and it took him a moment to remember that Ruby had talked about killing Aikara in the past. Ruby seemed to realize it too and looked at Aikara with an uncomfortable expression.

Aikara, oblivious to the situation, tilted his head in curiosity and asked, "Why are you guys looking at me like that?"

Ruby quickly brushed it off and replied, "Nothing."

Before Aikara could say anything else, Miyako interrupted with a shout, "I don't care anymore! I'm just gonna do it!"

Aqua was left deep in thought, trying to come up with a way to turn this dangerous situation into an opportunity.

"AH!" Ruby let out a panicked scream as she watched Miyako snapping pictures of her mother's diary. "What do we do? She's going to expose Mom's secrets!"

Aqua's eyes flickered with determination, and he turned to Ruby and Aikara. "I have a plan," he announced.

Hearing the details of the plan, Aikara looked skeptical. "Are you sure this will work?" he asked "Miyako is an atheist."

Aqua nodded. "I'm not sure if this will work either," he admitted. "But it's the best shot we've got. Our acting skills will determine whether or not she believes us."

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(Aikara POV)

Aqua nodded. "I'm not sure if this will work either," he admitted. "But it's the best shot we've got. Our acting skills will determine whether or not she believes us."

Hearing Aqua's words, I started to think.

Acting.

A world very familiar to me.

I can confidently say I'm a good actor, I've been doing it for years after all.

And I'm sure I can convince Miyako with my skills

But, do I really want to do this?

My hesitation doesn't come from the fact that I will lie and fool someone, I've been doing it for so many years that hesitation doesn't even cross my mind.

My hesitation comes from the act of acting as another persona.

When I was a kid, I still remember how much I loved acting. I remember staying up all night just to create the energetic persona I still use to this date. But as I grew older, my love for acting disappeared as I was forced to act all the time.

Do you know the quote of the composer and artist John Cage?

'If something is boring after two minutes, try it for four. If still boring, then eight. Then sixteen. Then thirty-two. Eventually one discovers that it is not boring at all.'

I never agreed with this quote. I've been doing this for ten years but I never found that spark again.

I guess when the novelty fades away, we are only left with a slightly enjoyable hobby.

Anyways, going back to the topic, my hesitation about acting as another persona comes from the fact that doing it will not make me receive love.

Even if the novelty fades away, the only thing that drives me to act is the desire for love, and it's the only thing that kept me going so far. It's what made me endure the existential crisis I have every day.