Addicted

Chapter 36

Marina Vettle

Dear Marina,

Meeting you was one of the best things that happened to me through the six years that I spent in this hospital. During the weeks that we were together, I learnt so many things about life, and why it is worth fighting; but I had been fighting for too long, and I am tired.

The moment I snapped out of my trace last night, I felt horrible for putting you in that place. In that danger. After seeing the fear in your eyes while I was being taken away, I knew that I was a danger for society. I had something no one knew how to treat it. When I was with you, I felt normal. You treated me like a human being, and that felt good. After I choked, you still wanted to help me; calm me; talk to me; and assure me. You told me that everything was alright. But it wasn't.

Then, I knew it was my time.

I'm sorry for everything I put you through. I hope you get the happy ending, and happy life you told me about, with your dreamy guy. Giovanni, wasn't it? You will get it, because you are strong, and also you deserve nothing but happiness and good things in life.

I will be watching over you. Protecting you.

I will miss you.

Be happy for me and yourself. Live your life to the fullest.

Sarah.

A tear dropped on the paper as I read it. The flashbacks of the night before kept on coming to my head, just the way Chris' came when it happened.

The moment I read the names on the piece of paper, I dropped it , and opened the door, as they were still open, as there were nurses still calming some patients. I ran, looking around. Opening doors. My cold feet hitting against the cold floor, making me almost slip. I kept yelling, "Sarah!" from the top of my lungs, pulling the attention from some nurses, including Nick. Also other patients' attention was taken. "Sarah, where are you?" I yelled. While I ran around.

But my running came to an end when I saw her, standing on the edge of a balcony, which she opened by breaking the doors. She had a rope around her neck, and was taking deep breaths.

"Sarah, please don't do this." I pleaded with her. "You have to fight all those urges, please." I cried. "There are people that care about you." I said.

"Who, Marina? Who cares about me?" She asked, making me realize that I used to be as neglectful as her. Or even worse. "No one cares for me. I am a waste of space." She was even saying the same words I said. Wow.

"I care about you, Sarah." I exclaimed, taking careful steps closer to her. "I don. Marie does too. Alex does as well. We all do." I explained.

"Well, if you care so much about me, just let me go." She cried. "I hurt you. I have hurt so many people in my surroundings that claimed that they cared about me." She said. "Let me do this. Let me leave this, so someone can come here, and improve themselves, and make the world better. Just like you. You are a ray of Sun who was covered by others insecurities. Let me help others." She said, while turning around.

"You can also make the world better by staying." I said.

"No, Marina. I can't." She shook her head. "The only way of making this world better is by leaving it. You do it for me ok?" She smiled. "Thank you for everything. And goodbye." She smiled, and then she jumped.

"No." I yelled. She smiled, as the color of her face drained out of her. As she started to lose breathe. As she started to lose consciousness. Nurses started rushing towards her, but her body was too far away for someone to reach her and save her. She was hanging from a pole, which used to have a flag hanging, which was now on the floor.