𝐕𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐮𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐒𝐰𝐞𝐞𝐭 𝐀𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐚 | ✔

𝐂𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝟖

Warning: This chapter contains scenes of sexual abuse, violence, and murder that may trigger some readers and may not be suitable for very young readers. Read at your own risk.

Note: If you are feeling any signs of depression, take note that help is always available anywhere and that there is always someone who is willing to lend you a helping hand or a shoulder to cry on. You are stronger than you think. Don't give up, your rainbow is on its way!

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-IYAH-

"Hello po Doc Vlad, sorry po late ak..." Hindi ko naituloy ang sasabihin ko dahil nagulat ako sa aking nakita. Vent was talking with my therapist. Paano niya nalaman na nandito ako? Imposible,  medyo malayo itong psych center sa town at walang masyadong dumadaan dito na sasakyan. Nakakapagtaka na nandito siya ngayon. 

"Iyah! Iha, it's okay you don't have to explain. You can sit there at your usual spot while I walk Vent to the door" Sabi ni Doc habang hinahatid si Vent palabas, pero malagkit pa rin ang tingin namin sa isa't-isa. Hindi niya rin sigurong inakala na magkikita kami rito.

Umupo ako sa mahabang upuang kulay kayumanggi at inantay si Doc. Nagi-guilty ako ngayon dahil hindi ako nagpapakita kay Vent. Pero kailangan ko siyang iwasan muna. I'm not yet ready to talk to him or even go near him. Masyado kong pinahiya ang sarili ko sa harapan niya. Nag-apologize naman si Chali in writing, stating that she panicked and mistakenly pushed AMOR in front.

AMOR is one of the worst alters. She is greedy, seductive, impulsive, and a blood sucker. Kaya naman naitulak din ito ni Chali dahil handa na rin siyang lumabas. We can't really blame Chali here because it was our instinct too,  maybe our body sensed danger that time.  Like that time with Vince, and in that kind of situation, AMOR wanted to switch with Chali.

Maraming beses na kaming napahamak ni AMOR, mas lalo kapag hindi niya kami ino-orient kapag siya ang lumalabas. We really didn't know what happened after Chali pushed her, kasi nga hindi niya kami sinasabihan. All we know is we were not ready to face Vent, actually, it was Chali who was not yet ready, until malaman namin kung ano ba talaga ang ginawa ni AMOR kay Vent. Kaya, deretso rin ang therapy namin kay Doc Vlad so he could communicate with AMOR and tell us what she did. At dahil she was so hard to control, hindi pa rin namin siya mapalabas at makausap.

Nagising nalang ako ng gabi sa boarding house without knowing what I did the whole day except of course when Mor and Chali was up front. They wrote down some of the things they did on a tiny notebook we put in our pockets for emergencies or sudden switches.

Naalala ko nanaman when AMOR was the last one who fronted, it was with Vince.

-FLASHBACK-

"Vince! Kanina pa kita hinahanap!" Masigla kong tawag sa matipunong lalaking naglalakad na may hawak na libro. He stopped as I called his name and blushed immediately. 

"Uy Iyah! pasensya na gusto ko lang talaga matapos itong binabasa ko" ngumiti naman ito at inakbayan ako sa balikat. I looked at him with longing, wanting to hug him and inhale his husky masculine scent. 

Vince was my first love. He treated me like I was the most lovable person in the world. Lagi niya akong pinapangiti at pinapatawa, he even brings me food when I'm in school. Pero sad to say, he only saw me as a little sister. But I promised myself na I will do everything so he could at least look at me as a potential girlfriend.

"Namiss mo nanaman ako noh?" He patted my head and pinched my cheeks in a brotherly kind of love. Secretly hoping he was doing it because he actually liked me as a lady and not just a little sister. Kinilig ako bigla. Normal lang sa kan'ya itong simple gestures, pero sa akin napaka- big deal, kaya umaasa talaga ako na liligawan niya ako someday.