heartbreaking souls

Ch 14. her

Gabriel

"What am I going to do" I asked Nathan

"Do about what, Amelia..." Nathan said whispering

"This is what is getting on my nerves!" I said

"What? Her name..her attitude WHAT!?" Nathan said angrily

"The fact that every time we talk about her we need to whisper her name..." I said

"You want to protect your reputation it's not my fault.." Nathan said and rolled his eyes

"And why she didn't talk to me the first period...or why she didn't look at me today" I said and got outside

"Men you are going crazy"
"And also it's your fault...she is literally doing what you said" Nathan said and took a big breath

"You said to not let anyone know about all this stuff so you can protect your reputation" he said

"I know..I know...but why did she listen to me" I said angrily

"Because she probably cares about your opinion"
"Also can we stop talking about her, your relationship is confusing"
"I preferred when you liked Lily" Nathan said and left

"But she has a boyfriend" I yelled

"So now the boyfriend matters..." Nathan said smirking

God I hate that man

The bell rang and it was the second period
That ment that we had P.E.

"So today we have partner exercises, but this time I'm choosing the pairs"

I prayed to Gods to be with Amelia because I knew this was the only time I could fix my mistake

"Amelia with Gabriel..." the teacher said and gave us the ball

"Shit..." I heard Amelia whispering

"I'm not that bad at basketball" I said and took the ball from her

"But I am, and I don't have the energy for you to criticize for everything that I do" she said and rolled her eyes

I didn't realize that I was that mean to her the past years

"Okey fine I will not criticize you..."I said and passed the ball to her

"Let's say that's Okey.. because I don't trust you" she said while scoring a point to the basket

"So...." I said and paused
"What now.." she said clearly annoyed

"Can you stop acting like that...I never did anything to you.." I said even though I knew what I have done

And as long as I'm thinking about it I wished I never did that question

I don't want to hear what I did to her
Because I'm trying to change and be more kind to her
But she doesn't understand that

In her mind she still has the old me
The guy that the only thing he wanted to do was to make fun of a girl

That after all she wasn't that bad
She just wanted to be kind

That moment I realized....
All this attitude and looks didn't change because she wanted to

She changed for someone else
Someone that never gave her attention
Someone that I knew better than I knew anyone else in this world
She changed for me

And I can admit that she turned really beautiful
I miss her smile though
She rarely smiles anymore

She became like all the other girls
But I also know that is not like the other girls

Before I could complete my thoughts I heard Amelia speaking

"Yes you did, but you care so much about yourself and your reputation that never respected my help and never noticed what i did for you"she said and threw the ball at me

"I never realized that" I said

"And now that you know...what is going to happen...nothing at all..because you don't even care" Amelia said

Before she could leave I grabbed her and not let her go

"I'm willing to change....and I want to change...and I don't care about my reputation" I said

"And how the hell I can trust you.." she said and a tear left her eye

"I know you do...I can see it in your eyes" I said

"And eyes never lie.." she whispered
"Okey fine...I will trust you...but if you break my trust I'm telling you..I'm going to find you and kill you with pleasure" she said

"So we have a deal" I asked
"Trust is not a deal....but yeah call it as you want" she said with a smile

"So we are like friends...." I asked
"If you say so.." she said and left

I knew what I was signing for
Gaining Amelia's trust will not be and the easiest thing
But I need her in my life

Even if it's going to ruin my whole world