Skylar
it has been a few weeks since Xander confronted his brother, everything seemed normal until he became distant again
we seemed to be fine, i thought we could work through this be what he said he wanted
he said those words right?, i mean i even try and meet his own needs... for her
everytime we have sex sometimes i do say it for me but sometimes he asks for it
he even coos me like he is talking to my little and sometimes i watch him lost in thought then a smile creeps his lips without looking at me it hurts, the jealousy
then it made it all a reality when a few nights ago i heard him stumble in drunk with Marcelle holding him up
flashback
'she is not her' he mumbles 'she is Xander' Marcelle sighs while dragging him to the stairs where i was hiding 'NO' Xander suddenly booms 'i, i dont want..' he stopped mid sentence 'fine' Marcelle grumbles and started taking him away, i creeped down the first few stairs seeing them heading for the living area, 'you can't be like this do you know how much she loves you' Marcelle is met with silence 'for weeks you have blocked her out yet she still fucking try's, i know you miss small Skylar but you have t..'
'i thought i could do it, i mean.. i can but' he sighs heavy 'i just feel like an asshole everytime she is smiling but my mind is on her other side' Xander suddenly growls and it hits my chest, pain only seeping through the words, it brought instant tears to my eyes 'i feel inlove'
'i know you did but you have the same woman infront of you and do you think that is easy for Skylar' silence 'you are an asshole Xander
i'm speaking to you as a god damn brother you have an amazing woman upstairs she would do anything for you she doesn't see your money or your lifestyle she sees you'
'i-i know' Xander's words crack 'then stop treating her so fucking badly' my hand goes over my mouth, in truth Xander doesn't treat me badly, he just ignores me which is worse.
Xander
My eyes flutter open a pain coming to my head i groan rolling over only to fall 'fuck' i hiss but i hear a smirk, knowing it is Skylar 'here' she helps me stand feeling groggy 'i got you coffee', 'thanks' i smile small 'go shower, we.. need to talk' i nod a little before she walks away.
After my shower i get ready fuck work today i feel like shit i have not drank like that in a long time, my office will be a mess from my rage fit that Marcelle walked into 'fuck' i run my fingers through my wet hair
Skylar wants to talk and i think i know what it is and i.. i just have to be honest dont i
sighing i leave the bedroom and head downstairs.
'Hey' i say
Skylar is baking 'hi' she smiles 'here try these' she pushes some pink cupcakes where i sit, leaning over she watches as i take a bite 'wow' i frown in amaze 'they are for the childrens orphanage' i frown more 'since when did you go there' she smiles a little 'well, you havent talked to me in a few weeks so, i uh had some time' she sounds sad which makes me sigh 'i am sorry, and for what its worth this is amazing what you are doing' she smiles 'come, lets talk' i say and she does coming aroundshe sits on the stool opposite me
'i know i have been an asshole, i know you don't deserve it' she looks down at her hands and i take one 'is it wrong that' i stop short 'take your time' she says 'i feel like what we do, that i am uh.. cheating' i frown 'Xander' she sighs before looking away
'it hurts' she exhales
'i do see it'
'see what' silence for a moment before she looks at me 'you don't even know it' i eye her, 'know what, Skylar'
'that your thinking of it... of her' my lips part, but my eyes only blink her words sound but their meaning is wrong because i do know it, i know i think about her everyday especially when i look at her 'did you just hear what i said' i frown i know its selfish it makes me a fucking asshole i mean how can i expect her to even live like that to watch me long for something only she can give me, i have been distant but i have been scared because if she leaves she will take the only thing i love with her, shit. there is days i open my eyes and hope to see my baby there, waiting for me or making a mess of our kitchen
i miss her so fucking much it hurts
i drank not to forget, i couldn't
i drank because it was the only thing that stopped me from having to face Skylar, everytime i look into her baby blues guilt rips at me i see it her hurting, i want to try and form a bond with her but i can't
'i am in the same boat, i am new to the whole relationship thing was risky, i should have told you when we met it is why i stay.. listen and respect,
it is a two way thing' my chest soars at her words coming through my fogged brain, snapping me from my longing, she is right she has never once yell'd at me or even called me an asshole she has just... let me breathe 'it will take time for us both' she smiles sadly before she continues, 'i want it too.. the bond, i want to be everything to you just like that side is. i want to give you everything' i see something flash in her eyes that i can't describe 'i love you Xander, since i met you i felt shame about my self' she looks down 'i didn't tell you about my little, but you supported it. you helped her, you cared. i genuinely like the bond you formed even if it does make me jealous that you cry over it' she laughs a little before frowning 'no one ever cared like you have, and truthfully even if i like who i am or not it is what i need, for years i suffered in silence not sure if i would even wake up because i was left alone to fend for my self in such a stage' this cracks me, i pull her to me 'i am so sorry' my face goes to her neck 'dont be, always let me know how you feel but please can we try make this work' i look out to her
'you are mine Skylar, i do love you. i can't not, if you left me i would try everything to get you back i am just in a confused place' she nods 'i know, it is why i am paitent with you. i want so much for me and you to work the same because over time you will love us both the same' my hands stroke her arms
she is right, how can she not be
it is true if she left me i would have fucking panicked, i never want to loose her and i never want her to feel less than she deserves, i just want her to be who she is
confusion takes up our minds but together we will work through it all, this i am sure of
fuck she's the only person to make me weak 'come on, lets take the cupcakes to the orphanage' i say before pressing my lips to her's, i need to do this o need to love all of her
i know i will because i am not letting her go.
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Little Love - B1
Romancethis is book 1 Skylar is twenty three, Xander is thirty two. little situations, divided love and a family secret. all of little skylar's parts are NOT written wrong Skylar is a woman who was refused to accept a side to her that made her closed o...
