Beautiful Scars✅

Some Wounds Never Heal..

Suhana always thought she is healer,she heals the world around her. Today after losing Aarav,her world changed a lot. She needs someone to heal her wounds,the scars which are both beautiful and ugly and the pain of losing him is still visible in her eyes.

Suhana was sleeping for a few hours that too only and only with Kairav around, she had completely lost her appetite because of which she had even started loosing weight, she had also started getting really fidgety and would often get angry at really petty things and would later feel even more annoyed because she knew that there was no reason to be angry in the first place but she couldn't help but feel angry.

Kairav had been noticing all these changes but every time he tried talking to her about it she would just brush it off saying that there was too much work to get done and so she was just too occupied in it and even though he knew it was probably more than just that he couldn't deny the fact that what she said was true and so he did not really bother digging further.

Suhana on the other hand couldn't really tell him what she was feeling because she herself was unaware of what exactly she was feeling and why and so what was she supposed to tell him and so she was left all alone to figure out her owm thoughts and feelings all of which seemed to just be completely out of control.

She pulled her hair in sheer frustration as she  could feel her head burst with these thoughts and had fisted her hair real tight feeling frustrated for not being able to stop this mental torture. She was willing to do anything to stop these thoughts because only she knew how much pain it was causing to her heart...Just then her eyes fell on Kairav's razor blade that was neatly placed on the sink counter and out of nowhere thought about how peaceful it would be to be able to not have any thought for a while.

He entered the room with utmost silence lest he disturbs her in anyway and very slowly walked towards her bed where she lay fast asleep.He slowly sat down on the small stool kept beside her bed and did nothing but just look at her with moist eyes. He felt a sharp pinch in his heart as he saw her pale face and heavy eye bags, he then looked at her hand which had the IV attached to it and only he knew how bad it pained him to see that.Just seeing her like that made him feel so helpless more so because he knew that it was she who was suffering and that was something that never went well with him. He remembered how she just turned her face away from him when he had come to see her before and couldn't help but once again feel guiltyMain janta hoon tum mujhse bohot naraz ho, bohot dil dukhaya hai maine tumhara...I know par main majboor hoon Suhana, bohot bohot majboor... He said as a stubborn tear rolled down his cheek while he lightly caressed her head.

Mere Ashk Keh Rahe Meree Kahanee

Inhein Samjho Na Tum Sirf Panee

Mere Ashk Keh Rahe Meree Kahanee

Inhein Samjho Na Tum Sirf Panee

He felt her move a little and instantly stiffened afraid that she would wake up and obviously wouldn't be so happy seeing him there thankfully though she did not wake up and that just made him sigh deeply but at the same time he couldn't help but feel so bad about the fact that he had to meet her like this. He never knew that there would come a time in their life where he would fear her seeing him around her. He remembered the time when she had fractured her wrist after falling down the stair, he was so worried for her and she would just tell him that as long as he is with her she would always be okay..."Main to aaj bhi yahi hoon Suhana, Tumhara Kairav tumhare pass hi hai...Bas tum hi khafa ho use" he said choking on his words as he lightly held her hand in his.

Ro Ro Ke Aansuo Ke Daag Dhul Jaayenge

Inn Me Wafa Ke Rang Aaj Ghul Jaayenge

Paas Tum Rahogee Bhul Abb Na Hogee,

Karunga Na Tumpe Sitam

He heard a light knock on the door and found the nurse who had come to tell him that he had to leave and though he did not want to , he knew he had to. "I promise you sweetheart main bohot jald tumhe yaha se le jaunga. Sab theek ho jayega Suhana...Sab kuch" he whispered placing a light kiss on her hair as another lone tear escaped his eye. He gave her one last longing look and thereafter without once turning back lest he breaks down there itself he walked out of the room.

Dil De Diya Hai Jaan Tumhe Denge,

Daga Nahee Karenge Sanam

It had been around 2 days since Suhana met with an accident, her foot was a bit better but her hand was still pretty much the same and as for Kairav he had left so stone unturned in taking care of her, making sure to be with her 24/7 just in case she needed something.

He had noticed how restless she had been during the last two days but did not ask her anything assuming it to be just because of the pain; little did he know about the mental turbulence she was going through. She herself did not understand what was happening to her, at one point she would be absolutely okay and the next minute all sorts of negative things would consume her mind.

"Just think about something nice" he said cutting her off as he placed soft kisses over her shut eyelids. He kept whispering sweet nothings in her ear as he constantly patted her head till she eventually fell asleep making him smile lightly.

"I love you... He whispered placing a light peck on her lips and smiled lightly as he finally saw her calm and asleep. Thereafter he carefully took her in his arms and making sure she was comfortable he too drifted off to sleep making a mental note of finding out what was it that was bothering her so much...