Secrets Pierre Gasly

Chapter 28

(I decided not to upload double yesterday. Which resulted with me rewritting this whole chapter and proba for the first time. I like my own writting lol)

He just looks back at me his mouth slightly agape at a loss for words.

I see his eyes scan Ollie up and down before once again looking back at me, His eyes look into mine but I am unable to read any emotion from them as they seemed all mixed together. I just stand there my hands slightly starting to shake. "Who are you?" Ollie asks looking up at him in awe he looked so drawn to him, but he is still at a loss for words. I see my mom walk out to me confused she turns her head to the door. "Pierre" she greets him, Pierre clears his throat "Miss Leclerc," he says his voice sounding emotionless "Who is Pierre?" Ollie asks still looking at him and examining him in the doorway but both me and Pierre stay frozen "Sweety come on how about we go down to the park" my mom says picking up Ollie knowing well that what is about to go down between me and Pierre is not for his ears, "But, now?" Ollie asks confusedly looking at Pierre still, finally looking back at me, "Yeah, mama needs to talk with Pierre" she explains to Ollie. I give him a fake smile nodding at them, he still seemed confused but he just wraps his hands around my mom's neck letting her carry him outside. 

Pierre steps away as they leave out the door. He hesitantly walks inside closing the door behind him. I still haven't moved an inch standing beside the couch just staring at him. We just stand there. "H-He-he is mine?" he asks very quietly looking into my eyes. I open my mouth but at first, no sound comes out of it. "Yes," I whisper looking away from his eyes. He takes a step back leaning against the door and running his hands through his hair closing his eyes. "Wha- When-" he tries to collect his words unsuccessful, I just stand, I can't get myself to move or do anything, he takes a deep breath looking back at me again I feel his eyes burning me, and I finally force the words out of myself. "H-how did you get here?" I ask quietly. He stares at me "Is that seriously what you have to say right now?" he asks raising his voice in annoyance. "But I guess I couldn't just forget it," he says annoyed. "And damm I did the right thing" he raised his voice again staring at my frozen frame "Do you seriously have nothing to say to me?!" his voice is getting louder

 "I-I don't know what to say..." I whisper looking away from him again. He lets out a loud scoff. "How about telling me about the fact that I have a fucking son!" he yells frustrated. "Sarah, I- How- How could you fucking keep this from me?!" he continues on, "I- I can't fucking believe you. I- How could you keep my son a secret for 3 years?! 3 YEARS!" he yells. I take a step back at the sudden tone change, slightly stumbling on the carpet almost falling. He notices the scared look on my face from his yelling, I see as he takes a deep breath again so many emotions are running down his face. "How could you keep this from me?" he asks now lowering his voice again but his eyes, but his eyes are filled with anger still. "Sarah" he takes a step towards me but I also take a step back as I feel quite scared of him at the moment.

I knew he would never hurt me, but right now, but I never saw him like this before and it scared me I look into his eyes trying to find confirmation that he wouldn't do anything but I only see anger in them still. "I- I was planning to tell you the night you broke up with me" I whisper very quietly as I can't seem to find my voice and he doesn't hear me. "I wanted to tell you the night you broke up with me," I say a little louder this time, I know he heard me this time because his face instantly drops. "How- Why didn't you tell me then?!" he pipes up again urging me to take one more step back. "Why didn't you say anything then? Everything would have-"  "Are you for real right now?" I ask getting a little bit pissed at his statement

"Yes, How could you not tell me right there I would've ne-" "What you would have never broken up with me?" I ask starring at him "Pierre you waltzed into our room that night telling me that dating ME alone was too much for you, So are you really trying to tell me that if I told you right there that it would be soon 3 of us now you would've just changed your mind?!" I ask opening my arms, "Yes, because I didn't want to break up with you!" he yells again "Oh don't even fucking say that, you were kissing Emily a few hours later and you didn't want to break up with me?!" I stare at him lifting my arms in disbelief "I was drunk, and I fucked up Okay?" "No it's not fucking okay Pierre omg" I am on the verge of tears now

"I regretted it right the moment it happened and I wanted to explain everything the next morning, then you just left and disappeared for the next 3 years, not letting anyone contact you!" He yells back again "When were you even planning to tell anyo-" He doesn't finish his sentence looking at my face flinching. "You weren't planning to ever tell me," He says "If it weren't for Arthur's accident you would've never came back. You would have never told me or anyone," he says his sadness coming over his face "I am right am I?" he yells once again making me back away even more tears now running down my face. He looks into my eyes "Why are you backing away?" he asks his voice emotionless as he stares at me, "Y- you are scaring me" I whisper between two quiet sobs. His face drops looking into my eyes seeing how they are filled with fear. He takes a few steps back running his hands through his hair taking a deep breath trying to calm himself

"You were planning to keep my kid away from me forever?" he asks now instead of yelling he is barely whispering. I once again don't even respond I just stand there staring at the floor letting my tears wet my shirt. "I know I fucked up but that's not fair Sarah. What the fuck? That is not fucking fair Sarah!" he says his voice cracking multiple times. "Why?" he asks one more time his voice failing him completely. 

The hotel room door suddenly opens making me look up to see Laura and Charles walking in, Pierre also looks up at them. Judging by their face my mom has already called them and that is why they are here, I look over at Pierre for the first time in the past almost 10 minutes, he looks torn apart, his eyes glistening with some threatening tears. All four of us just stand there no one knowing what to say. Pierre just stares at me as some of my tears fall down. 

"When Lando said" he gulps. "He said Emily, she- she saw him right?" he says emotionless putting the pieces together, I slowly nod my head, and he runs his hand over his face, turning around and leaning over the kitchen island. Laura slowly walks over to me bringing me into a hug as tears run down my face. I see Charles being a little hesitant about what to do looking between me and Pierre, I was his little sister, and he was one of his best friends and Laura was already trying to comfort me, I look at him giving a look of approval for him to go to him.

As I am hugging Laura, I look over at him, his shoulders are shaking. He was crying. I see Charles gripping his shoulder calming him, I pull away from Laura wiping my face with the back of my hand. I walk over to Pierre, and Charles walks away trying to give us a little space. Pierre straightens up wiping away his tears, sniffling. "I am going to get my mom to bring Ollie back here, " I say looking at him, "But only if you can calm down and fix yourself up. Only then" I say he just gives me a silent nod "I am serious Pierre, if you just do one thing wrong, raise your voice near him. I am disappearing again, and it won't matter who knows about him, I'll never come back" I say in a serious tone because he truly scared me before "You have to promise this. You deserve the chance to meet him obviously you do, but you have to promise, and we, we will figure things out later" I say, and he nods "I swear" he says quietly before leaving for the bathroom

As soon as I hear the bathroom door lock behind him, I let out the sob I have been holding back holding my stomach with one hand while my other hand flies over my mouth muffling my sob, Charles rushes over to embrace me in his arms holding me tightly as the sobs leave my mouth, "It's okay" he says kissing my forehead, "You are okay" he holds me, After a little, I pull away from him taking a deep "C-Can you text mama to come back?" I ask quietly he nods "Want us to stay?" he asks. I shake my head 

"No, it has to be the three of us"

A little bit sadder more serious toned chapter. But well it was very much needed. But the secret is out. Now the question is.

Can they deal with it?

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