"Hija, kumain ka na."
I just groaned to give a sign that I was already awake. Narinig ko ang bugtong-hininga ni Manang Wenda bago ako nakarinig ng mga footsteps at tunog ng pagsara ng pinto.
I force myself to sleep but then I can't sleep anymore kaya kinuha ko ang comforter na nakabalot sa 'kin at dahang-dahan sinuot ang sleepers para mag-ayos ng sarili. Pagkatapos ay nakita ko ang dalawang tray ng pagkain sa study table ko.
Yeah, it's already noon.
It's been a week since I don't have the appetite to eat breakfast, lunch, and dinner. I only drink water and some bread para mabuhay pa ako ng ilang araw.
Just funny to the thought that I'm still hoping that Daddy would come to my room and force me to eat so her daughter would still live pero wala, e. Kahit malang si Mommy, wala. Ni-kahit isa sa kanila na kinamusta man lang ako kung buhay pa ba ako o ano pero wala, e. It's just funny that I'm still hoping 'til now they'll do that for me, kahit isa beses man lang.
Pumunta ako sa bookshelf ko at nagre-read ng libro to keep me entertained. Hindi nagtagal ay nagsawa na ang mga mata ko kakabasa kaya naman bumaba ako at pumunta sa garden para magpahangin.
Finally, bukas hindi na ako grounded. I could finally have my life back. My life this week was incredible hell. I just couldn't take it anymore, to be not scolded you have to keep your mouth shut. Yes, I understand that yelling about who's older than you is disrespectful and I know I'm wrong about that. But not hearing our side because we're just kids? What's up?
I sighed. Our house is big so our garden is also big, it has a lot of plants and it has also a greenhouse. Kung gaano kakulay ang garden ay ganun din kadilim ito. Pano ba naman kasi, walang mga ibon o butterfly man lang dumadapo dito. Na-feel siguro nila na hindi magandang lugar ito. Ilipad niyo rin ako fleece.
As soon as I step inside the classroom, the eyes are all on me then I heard whispering. When will I live peacefully?
Pinili ko nalang hindi ito pansinin at umupo lamang sa upuan ko. As I move the steel chair, I noticed that Jeremiah's eyes opened.
"Good morning," I joked.
He just nodded and stretch his arms. Napailing nalang ako at napaupo na. Nilabas ko ang mp3 player ko at sinuot yung headset.
Mabilis ang oras at recess na. I fixed my things and I make my way to the CR. Medyo natagalan pa ako sa CR kasi hindi ko kinaya ang mga mata ng mga mata. Yes, I disappeared for a week and no one knows what's the reason behind it, even Gwin and Raign. They didn't bother to ask because they know that'll I'm not going to say it. They'll just waste time asking.
That's the only thing I'm good at. Making people think that I was perfect and that I was living the best life pero no, I wasn't living my best life. I was living my life for the worst.
I was about to leave pero naalala ko na naiwan ko pala ang mp3 player ko sa cubicle kaya bumalik ako dun sa loob. As I was about to go out biglang may mga tawanan akong narinig. At kusa nalang nalaman na I just locked myself inside.
"Jeez, you're so pretty today, Jil!" One of the girls giggled. "I think ma-iinlove na naman nito si Yahwi!"
"God, can't you see? He's really into me, girls," I heard from a familiar voice.
"Really? Kung totoo nga ba't palagi kong nakikita ang Yahwi mo kay Miss High Achiever so whatever."
One of the girls groaned. "Gosh, her face is so annoying. Buti pa nga nung wala siya. I feel relaxed!"
"Sa true lang!" tumawa sila. "But did you guys notice that she disappeared for 1 week?"
"So? What did she want us to do? Cry for her?" I heard her voice again. "Who cares? She loves drama. So drama queen."
Napakagat ako ng labi ko at sinuot ang mp3 player ko. I hate my life.
I never wish to be born and live this.
I stayed for like an hour before I decided to unlock myself. Binasa ko ang buong mukha ko at tinitigan ang mukha ko sa salamin.
"You're disgusting me," I said and smile bitterly on my reflection. Hinugasan ko ulit ang mukha ko at lumabas ng ladies' comfort room at pupunta na sana sa classroom.
I was clenching my fist and trying to ignore what I just heard earlier pero parang sirang plaka ang isip ko at pabalik balik ito nagrereplay kaya lalo ako nababadmood.
"Saan ka galing?"
Napalingon ako sa nagsalita nung kaka-akyat ko palang sa second floor.
"Why?" I asked him back.
"Just tell me."
I laugh sarcastically and look at him in the eye, cold. "Who are you for you to ask me to tell me? You're no one."
I bumped his shoulder as I walk past him when suddenly he grab my arm but gently make me turn my gaze on him.
"What's wrong?" He asked me with too much gentleness in his voice as if he was scared that I would roar at him like I just did earlier. Dude! How this guy can control his freaking emotions? I expected him to be mad at me for telling him harsh stuff or what pero... No, he asked me what was wrong.
Everything. Everything is wrong.
"Wala. Na-bad mood lang. Sorry, I snapped," I lied.
"Don't lie to me, Maiana Gabrielle."
"You don't know me," I said. "Teka nga. Ba't mo ba tinatanong 'yon?"
"Because I..." He paused as he look into my eyes directly.
Napakurap ako at napatawa. "Whatever," I rolled my eyes and shove his hand away from my arm. "Stop talking to me."
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Adult Teenager's Matters (YOUNG ADULT SERIES #1)
RomanceMaiana Gabrielle Hermé is a high achiever on their school. She's good at everything, no wonder she's called the ace of their school. But little did people know what's behind Maiana's life was darker than anyone could imagine. Some of students dream...
