Alpha x Alpha [SB19 - SeKen AU]

Chapter 10

PABLO

Tangina Pablo! Umayos ka nga!!

I slapped my face trying to wake some senses in me. I think it wasn't hard enough so I did another.

I can feel my cheeks going numb.

Ano bang nangyayari sayo hah??! I scolded myself.

I've been like this after the last time we saw each other. I hate to admit it, but I really am waiting for his text or call. I don't know why.

Promise. Hindi ko alam.

Cross my heart.

Mamatay man mga kuko sa paa ng tukmol na yun.

I really don't know why i'm hoping to see and read a message from him.

Arrrggghhhhhh!!!

I let out another scream of frustration that only I could hear. I buried my head into the pillow and groaned a few times.

This is madness!

Nothing special happened after we drove back to the university. We sit in silence.

I did what I had to do.

Get the money. Pay him the debt. And bid goodbye.

Truthfully, I was the one who said that we shouldn't contact each other anymore. What for right?

Wala na kaming dapat pag usapan. We should part ways and pretend that neither of us existed in each other's world.

Yun naman talaga ang dapat gawin hindi ba?

Hindi naman namin kilala ang isa't isa in the first place. The 'slept thing' was also just an accident. Handa na akong palipasin yun. Nangyari na so I decided to not dwell on that matter anymore. It's useless.

So I badly want to question myself for acting like this. Stell have noticed already that I am acting weird this past few days. And he hit bulleyes a while ago.

Is that a twins intuition?

Is it because we have connection?

Or masyado lang talaga akong halata?

I heaved a sigh.

Maging ako ay naguguluhan na din sa inaakto ng sarili ko.

This is so not me.

My totally compose self is now in chaos.

Just because of that guy.

What have you done to me, Ken Suson? What sorcery did you cast?

Maraming tanong pero alam kong wala akong makukuhang sagot. Hindi ko masasagot. Hindi ko kayang sagutin.

I flipped myself over. Fix and calm myself.

I need to focus.

The inter-univ fest will be next week and I don't have the time to think about anything else.

I need to study.

That's the right and obvious thing to do.

No distractions from here on out. Got it Pablo? my inner self ordered.

I nodded and extend my arm to get the book that was on the table near my bed.

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Few days had passed and I felt that i'm back to my old self. Nilunod ko ang sarili sa walang humpay na pagbabasa at pag aaral. Though sometimes, I still caught myself on taking few glances to my phone.

I haven't heard anything from Ken as well. Which I consider as a good thing.

Yes, it is.

"You ready Pabs?" Cross asked.

Fest na. Medyo busy ang school kasi host ang university namin ngayong academic year.

A lot of students from different univ are roaming around. Passing by from time to time.

"Of course I am." I confidently answered.

I know I had prepared enough. This will be easy as pie.

Delegates from another school was already in their seat. I should go inside too.

"Pasok na ko." sabi ko.

Cross nodded. "Goodluck bro." he said, tapped my shoulder, and then left.

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KEN

"Ken Suson!"

"H-Huh??"

Josh shouted in front of my face.

"Ano bang nangyayari sayo hah?? Kanina ka pa tinatawag ni coach. Warm up na." sabi nito.

I immediately followed.

I stood beside the others with nothing in mind but him.

Even I am confused myself. I don't know why but he never left my mind even for a moment. His gentle face while quietly looking into the distance keeps running through my mind.

Unceasing.

Non-stop.

And that brought an indescribable peace to my heart.

Maybe because I calmed down cause of his presence while I was surrounded by anger at that time. I didn't expect to feel that kind of feeling with him. With so many people. Among many friends that I have, he gives something different when he is near. Something that I couldn't explain yet I like.

These past few days I feel like I'm not myself. I'm always glancing at my phone. Struggling to hold back the urge to call him. Because I know it's not possible.

Magagalit lang siya sa akin. Mainitin pa naman ang ulo nun.

He also told me not to contact him anymore. And I agreed. Stupid.

Maybe it was just an infatuation.

Maybe i'm longing for someone's warmth. And I felt it in him unconsciously.

"I've heard that you've talked to Justin a week ago. Dahil ba sa kanya kaya wala ka sarili nitong mga nakaraang araw? And even up to now?" Josh asked.

My brows furrowed. "How'd you know?"

Chismoso ah.

"You think may maitatago ka sa university na 'to?? You've been seen by many. You're shouting and Justin was crying, sa tingin mo hindi kayo papansinin ng mga estudyante dito??" tanong nito na punong puno ng kasiguraduhan sa tono.

"You know you're famous yet you make a scene like that. Yung totoo Ken, nag iisip ka ba?"

I hissed.

"Tapos magtataka ka kung bakit ko alam." sabi nito.

I rolled my eyes. "Like it was my fault? Well, it's not. Siya itong lapit ng lapit. After what he did, lakas ng loob. Tsk." buska ko.

"Eh bakit kasi hindi mo hayaang magpaliwanag muna yung tao. He just want to talk. Malay mo, acceptable naman pala yung reason niya." Josh said.

Acceptable reason??? Haha. Nagpapatawa ba siya?

There is no reason that I can accept. Coming from him. No.

"Or atleast try to listen to him. So you both can have closure. Baka yun lang kailangan mo. Nang puso mo."

Hindi ako sumagot.

Can I really forgive him? Can I really forget the pain that he brought in me? Can I?

"SUSON!" my thoughts was abrupted by our coach.

"Yes coach!" I yelled back.

"Come here for a second. I need to talk to you!" he shouted.

I put all my thoughts on the back of my mind.

This is not the right time to think of those. I'll decide after the game.

Agad akong sumunod at lumapit dito.

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