Alpha x Alpha [SB19 - SeKen AU]

Chapter 22

PABLO

We stayed in that position for some minutes.

Siya, na nakahilig ang ulo sa dibdib ko at ako, na patuloy lang sa paghagod ng likod nito.

Kalmado na siya.

"Okay ka na?" mahinang saad ko.

Umayos na ito ng upo at tumango.

"Ako nga ang dapat magtanong sayo nyan." he said.

A small smile was formed in my lips.

He doesn't have any intention to hurt me.

"Ayos nga lang ako. I understand." I said.

"Still, I am at fault. Hindi dapat ako nagpadala sa bugso ng emosyon. Tangina! Inilagay kita sa alanganin Pablo." sinabunutan nito ang sarili dahil sa labis na pagkainis.

I held his arm. "Hey I told you, it's fine. Alam kong hindi mo yun sinasadya." sabi ko.

"Kahit na." he looked at me with distress. "What if hindi ako natauhan? What if I continued releasing pheromones? What if you really die? Fuck!!!" he said in exasperation.

Him blaming himself for something he didn't intended to do breaks me.

How can I ease that guilt I brought in you Ken?

"Maybe Justin was right."

Bakit nasali sa usapan ang ex niya?

"Maybe he's right. Maybe I really am dangerous. Maybe I really can easily hurt someone because sometimes, I am emotionally unstable." he blurted out.

Ano ibig nyang sabihin dun?

"What do you mean?" tanong ko.

Is that the reason why Justin leave?

"He said he became afraid. Natakot siya sa mga bagay na pwedeng mangyari at posible kong gawin if we bonded. He's scared of the reality that I am a dominant alpha." pagtatapat nito.

"I was mad because I saw his reasons as a stupid and not acceptable one." Ken gritted his teeth. "But looking back on how I put your life in danger for being unwary of my feelings and actions made me realize that what he said was true." muling lumungkot ang mukha nito at napuno ng pagsisisi.

Hindi yun totoo. No one is innately evil. Mapa alpha o omega man yan. Dominante man o hindi. Ang pagiging masama nang tao ay hindi nakabase sa kung saang bahagi ng lipunan siya nabibilang.

So Ken doubting himself and thinking that he may be a walking abomination is pure nonsense.

Who tf believes that??!

"Ken, listen." I called him and he looked at me. "That's not true, okay? Wala sayo ang problema. Nasa kanya." sabi ko.

"His way of thinking is clearly the problem here. Kung mahal ka niya talaga, dapat nagtiwala sya sayo. Dapat nagtiwala siya na hindi mo siya sasaktan cause you won't, right?" I said.

He nodded.

"Have you ever hurt him? Physically or emotionally?" I asked again.

Umiling ito.

I still can see the tears in his eyes that was about to flow.

Tangina. Ayaw ko nga siya sabing nakikitang umiiyak eh.

"So it wasn't your fault. It's his mindset. So please don't say that he's right, cause he's absolutely not."

Tinapik ko ang balikat niya.