Dear Diary 35... Amending Things

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The rest of January was good, Ashley and I were doing very good, I think it’s safe to say the old Ashley is back. It was now February and today Ashley was coming to fetch me to visit him, for a day only, he was going to bring me back later. So, we got to his place, it was the first time I came since we broke up. We were sitting in the living room and he was rubbing my feet

Ashley: Thanks for coming

Me: You welcome

Ashley: So, next month our baby is coming

Me: Yes, are you ready?

Ashley: I have always been ready, are you?

Me: I don’t know, what I do know though is that I’m scared, I heard people saying labour pains are no child’s play

Ashley: You will be fine, I will be by your side the whole time

Me: Thanks

Ashley: And I know you can handle and take labour pains like a champ, like you took the pain of breaking your virginity like a champ

Me: [Laughing] Please don’t remind me

Ashley: [Laughing] Okay sorry, I really missed this

Me: I missed this too, when I lost you, I lost my best friend too

Ashley: Babe you will never lose me, I don’t know what got into me last year

For some reason, I started crying, is it still heartbreak or hormones?

Ashley: I’m really sorry for everything Nosipho, I wish I could take everything that I did back, I hate myself for what I did to you

Me: [Crying] You really hurt me Ashley

Ashley: I know and I’m really sorry, I’m trying my best to make it up to you

He came closer and hugged me, I was just holding on to him, crying, I guess I was crying because I have been waiting to hear those words for a while now

Ashley: I’m sorry, please don’t cry

I wiped my tears off

Ashley: I promise you that something like that will never happen again, I will never hurt you again

Me: I hope you mean it

Ashley: I do, I will do everything to make you happy again, so do you forgive me?

Me: I do

Ashley: I love you

Me: I love you too

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