Dear Diary... Nosipho's Life

Dear Diary 34... The Name

Today is Saturday, Ashley took me to my 7-month appointment, Tumi came with us, I was sitting at the front seat and Tumi was at the back

Tumi: I can’t wait to see my baby, I’m so excited

Me: I know right, I can’t wait for her to come out, I can’t see my vagina anymore and I miss sleeping on my stomach

Ashley: [Laughing] Being pregnant must be really hard

Tumi: Have you guys decided on the name yet?

Me: Not yet, but my mom wants me to name her Unathi and I like the name

Ashley: That’s a nice name, I love it, I also love the name Assa

Me: Is it the name of one of your hoes?

Ashley: Please don’t start

Me: I’m just asking, I don’t want to name my child after one of your bitches

Ashley: For your information, I came up with that name myself, I thought about names for both genders when we found out that you were pregnant, you wouldn’t know that because you were too focused on trying to kill my baby

Me: Oh, now she’s your baby? Since when? Was she your baby when you told one of your hoes that you are not sure if she’s yours and that you want a DNA test as soon as she’s born when you know exactly that you are the only guy I’ve ever had sex with

Ashley: Nosipho what the hell are you talking about? Who told you this?

I took out my phone and read the message I received from an unknown number out loud saying I should leave Ashley alone and go find my baby’s father, Ashley has now opened his eyes, he said it himself that he always pulled out so that can’t be his baby and he wants a DNA test as soon as the baby is born

Ashley: These are all lies, I know very well that child is mine, she’s my life

Me: But then how does she know some of the things she knows, not even my best friend Tumi knew details about our sex life, Ashley I just don’t care anymore, you’ve hurt me so much that I’m now numb, I don’t care about who you f~$* and how much you insult me, I don’t care, just do right by your daughter

Ashley: What details about our sex life? This girl only mentioned the pulling out part, Nosipho you know me very well, you know I would never say something like that, you know very well how much I love you and my baby and how you mean the world to me

Me: I don’t know you anymore, this is not the Ashley I fell in love with, I can never be too sure with anything when it comes to this new Ashley, what I do know though is that if you really loved me then you wouldn’t have hurt me like you did

I bet Tumi was feeling awkward at the back, I was also tired of this whole bullshit. We got to the doctor and the check-up went very well, the baby is still healthy and doing good. After the check-up, Ashley suggested that we go have brunch but after that car ride to the doctors, I just couldn’t sit with him and eat and still sit an entire car ride with him again, so I suggested that we buy take outs and go home.

We did that but Tumi and I ate in the car, he couldn’t eat because he was driving, when we got to my house he asked to sit a bit and eat in my living room, so I agreed because at some point me and this guy will have to get over our issues and be the best parents to our child, Tumi went into my bedroom to call Tumisho, Ashley and I sat in the living room, I turned on the TV, he was sitting there eating

Ashley: Do you want some of my food?

Me: No, I’m full

Ashley: Come on, don’t be shy, I know how much this pregnancy makes you love food more than anything in this world

Me: To be honest I still want food but I ate too much, my stomach feels like it’s gonna explode, it hurts

Ashley: [Laughing] Sorry

Me: It’s cool, I just can’t wait to give birth and get back to my old body

Ashley: That old sexy body, you still look sexy though

Me: Nope, now I look like a fat whale

Ashley: That’s not true, you are the sexiest pregnant girl I’ve ever seen, you should get pregnant more often

Me: [Laughing] You are really insane

We just sat there and talked for an hour or so, we even finalized the baby names, Assa Unathi Hudson (Ashley’s surname because he and his father did everything that needed to be done in order for the baby to use their surname and my family agreed), when he left we were on good terms, he even took my phone and unblocked himself everywhere I blocked him.