When I woke up I wasn’t feeling well at all, I was throwing up, I couldn’t eat, Ashley insisted on taking me to the doctor, I didn’t even wanna go but we went anyway, and when we got there I told the doctor everything that’s been going on and he started asking me questions about my sex life, when I last had my period… FUCK!
I started getting nervous because I just realized that I last had my period in June before breaking my virginity, at first I wasn’t stressed because my period has always been irregular. The doctor gave me a cup and asked me to go pee in it in the bathroom, so I did that and brought back the cup, he did the test and looked at me and Ashley
Doctor: Congratulations, you are pregnant
When he said that I looked at him and thought to myself “Is this doctor on drugs?”
Ashley: Doc are you sure?
I was shocked, I couldn’t utter a word
Doctor: Yes
Ashley: How far along is she?
Doctor: I don’t know but we can find out now
The doctor looked at me
Doctor: Can you please go lie down on that bed for me [As he pointed]
I went to the bed without saying a word. The doctor asked me to pull up my shirt and he drizzled some gel on my stomach and checked
Me: Doctor how far along am I? is it possible to have an abortion?
Ashley looked at me
Ashley: There won’t be any abortion done
Me: This is my body and I will do anything I want
Ashley: Well I won’t repeat myself, no child of mine will be killed
Me: Your child? Oh, so you did this on purpose? You got me pregnant on purpose?
Doctor: You can have an abortion, you are 3 months pregnant
I got up, wiped the gel off my stomach, took the car keys in Ashley’s pocket and stormed out, I unlocked his car and got in, after like 20 minutes he got in with some medication from the doctor
Me: I don’t care what you say, I’m having this abortion with or without your approval
Ashley: I said that’s not gonna happen!
Me: Shout one more time and I promise it will be the end of us
Ashley: I’m sorry, but you are not having any abortion
Me: My mom was right, I should have listened to her. I shouldn’t have had sex, look at me now
I started crying (I wasn’t crying out loud, I was covering my eyes with my hands crying), I was feeling mixed emotions but excitement wasn’t one of those feelings, the only person in my mind was my mom, this is going to kill her, she had such high hopes for me, I felt worthless and a waste of breath, I felt like my life was over, I wanted to die
Ashley: Baby please don’t cry, I’m sorry
Me: Let’s just go home
I didn’t want to be with him but I didn’t want to go to my mom’s house either, I didn’t know how I was gonna face my mom. My father must be disappointed.
The ride home was silent, I was looking out the window and tears just kept rolling down my cheeks. When we got home it was around 1pm
Ashley: What do you wanna do today?
Me: Nothing
Ashley: Okay can we talk about what happened today?
Me: Talk I’m listening
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Dear Diary... Nosipho's Life
Teen FictionMy name is Nosipho, I am 17 years old and I am still in high school doing grade 11, I live with my mother and my little brother and sometimes my best friend sleeps over, she is like my twin sister. My father passed on when my mother was pregnant wit...
