Not the Plan

Plan 17

~Do Kyungsoo~

I looked at the drawing and felt my face heat up. Namamawis din yung mga kamay ko at hirap akong huminga. I frowned and my hands started to shake as sweat appeared on my forehead. 

Hindi ko alam kung anong ginawa ni Kai sakin. He's giving me a feeling i never felt before. Something foreign... something dangerous.

Paano ko ba idedescribe?

"Jongin," i whispered without looking away from the drawing. "Ano bang ginagawa mo?" napabuntong hininga ako saka finold yung drawing. Inilagay ko ito sa bulsa ng jacket ko saka humiga nalang ulit sa sleeping bag.

Tumagilid ako saka napatingin sa duffel bag sa isang dulo ng tent. There's the blue rose Kim Jongin gave me a while ago and i stared at it without reaching out. It looks so beautiful and everything. It's.. too beautiful and yet...

He said I'm more beautiful.

Hindi ko maintindihan si Kai... si Jongin. Ginugulo niya ako.

Maybe I'll rest my thoughts for a while. Maybe I'll forget about this feeling the moment i wake up.

Hindi pa ako nakakatulog nang bumukas yung zipper ng tent. It's a good thing my back is facing the opening of the tent and so i kept my eyes shut and tried to breathe normally. I clenched the collar of my jacket and tried not to move.

"Tulog na siya?" mahinang bulong ni Kai sa sarili niya. He sighed and started to fix his bed, i think. I exhaled a troubled breath and tensed when i felt his presence just behind me.

"Did he see the drawing?" he whispered and i can feel him hovering. Jusko. Ano ba to. Pakiusap, ilayo niyo siya. ILAYO NIYO!

And very suddenly, i felt his hand over my forehead. "Kyungsoo?" he called and i tried hard not to say anything. "You feel... hot." he said and that's when i realized how red my face already is. He tapped my cheek. "Kyung?" he called again and that's when i tried to whimper.

Kunwari nga tulog diba?

"W-what?" i groaned without opening my eyes. Nice try, Kyungsoo.