boyfriends
Happiness is easier believed than achieved.
I refused to give up hope at first, things would change if I just tried a little harder...
I was wrong.
My days blended together, a collage of wedding plans, delays, and "are you okays".
My lips were occasionally tinted red by the only thing that could temporarily take away my feelings.
I know I took him for granted, and I'm too late, just like I was with my mom. All my efforts inevitably fail.
Sometimes I stare at my phone for hours,
Maybe I should try to call? I could apologize and tell him it was all a misunderstanding.
But I don't, that isn't fair. He's probably happy now.
The warm Los Angeles sun tanning his skin, possibly doing what he loves...maybe a lover.
It's fair for me to come raining down on his life with my problems. My never-ending problems.
If only he knew what I was thinking, if only he knew that it hurt me to get away from him too. To hear the whispers when he entered a room. But I knew it was selfish of me to say anything, I made my decision.
And now I have to live with it.
A heartbroken fool.
Some days I think I'll open my door and he'll be there, saying the right things to get under my skin and I'll spill everything I've been keeping contained.
I don't wanna be alone.
So at night I lay awake, eyes wide open, daydreaming our dream.
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a/n Sooooo the story is coming to an end :-( I'd love to know what you think! This is far from my last experiment with albums and *hopefully* my next ones will be a little more planned out (if my health permits it). Only one more chapter to gooooooo!
-Kaylaa'
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just thinking about you.
Teen Fictioncocaine, side boob, choke her wi- just thinking about you. a story inspired by tracks from Harry's House by Harry Styles.