The maze runner: If I live (Newt x reader)

Chapter 33

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Newt

I wake up, disgusted with myself. Y/n fainted and I made it about myself. I'm being dramatic and overreacting. Get over it, I tell myself. I'm never like this. I'm supposed to be the calm, sensible one. Never breaking. I guess that's why it finally happened. It's not that I'm not any of the things people think I am. It just gets tiring after a while. I mean, everyone has breakdowns. It's normal. Or at least, I'm telling myself it's normal.

I rubbed my eyes. It's the next morning. I've been asleep for ages. I looked around. Y/n's not there. I've lost her. I stand up, looking around me. Yep, she's gone. I rub my eyes again, sitting down on the bed. My head sinks down onto my arms, propped up on my knees. I start thinking. If I can get Y/n to be my girlfriend... I can do anything. I get up, marching to my door. Just as I lift my hand up to open it, it opens. My eyes lift, and widen. It's Y/n, dressed in a little black t-shirt and shorts. Her hair is tied up in a messy bun, with a lock of hair hanging down. I take a deep breath in, fighting the urge to kiss her right then and there. "Consent first" I think. "What?" Y/n says, starting to laugh.

" Uh..." I say, dropping my head down in embarrassment. "Did... I... saythatoutloud?" I say as quickly as I can. She takes my hand in hers, it's inhumanly soft. "Yep" she says, visibly trying to hold back her laugh. "And I think you're right, consent does come first" she says to me, her face suddenly becoming straight and serious. I nod slowly, not knowing what to do. Y/n looks up at me, her face still serious before bursting into laughter. I'm now puzzled. She can change her emotions so quickly. I don't know if she's sad or happy. Just then, my eyes widened. "Y/n! What happened to you last night? Are you ok? I'm going to murder Jeff when I next see him! The shank, imagine him hurting you like that! The audacity!" I say, shaking my head and curling up my fists. Y/n held my hands. And I slowly unravled them to look at her. "I'll tell you everything, Newt. Just sit down". She let go of one of my hands, and guided me to my bed with the other. I was seriously worried about her, but she looked literally stunning. I couldn't take my eyes off her. But I regained focus.

"I'm ok, or at least I feel ok". She started off, sitting herself on the edge of my bed.

"Jeff had to remove some stitches, that's why it was loud. You weren't the only worried one though. I had to fight off people this morning". She said, adding a chuckle at the end. I smile back, tilting my head to the side slightly. "I know this is the WORST time" I said, "but can I... Kiss you?" She smiled at me, putting her hands on the sides of my head. "You don't have to ask me, you shank". She said, before sinking her lips onto mine.

I mean yes, It's perfectly possible that I might have maybe imagined the whole "can I kiss you" thing and just kissed her instead. That's perfectly possible. No, I'll correct that. That's exactly what happened. And don't get me wrong. This is NOT an apology. I definitely do not regret kissing Y/n. It's the best kiss I've ever had. Well, that's not really fair. As I can't remember anything from before the maze. But oh well. What I meant was, she's a great kisser. Well, compared to me at least. I'm a shucking horrible kisser. And it's not that anyone told me. I just know. From the experience. Y/n was nice though. She didn't say anything. After kissing a bit. (Ok fine, a bit more than a bit). She just lay with me on my bed. Her face on my chest. For the bro's out there... Describe a better feeling than that one, I dare you.

Hi Gladers. It's me again, the author. Hope you are enjoying the adventure with Newt and You😀. And I know, I know. They need to get out of the shucking maze! Oh well, Minho and Thomas are working on it. I'll try and update soon. Bye!