The maze runner: If I live (Newt x reader)

Chapter 17

Newt

I approached it, balancing my feet on the edge, half of them already off it. My body was swaying as I slowly closed my eyes in pain and misery wanting to end it and yet not bringing myself to. I felt a pounding in my ears, more like a voice. Y/n's voice was in my head and I smiled slightly, pleased that her voice would be the last one that I heard. Something trickled down my lips, it was cold but sweet tasting as I licked a bit of it up, into my mouth. The rest fell down to the bottom of the maze and I looked slowly down, my eyes slightly adjusting to the sight. My eyesight cleared and I could suddenly see Y/n standing right down below me, on her knees but looking straight up at me, crying and screaming my name out in frustration of my lack of response. She was telling me to stop, to not do it, to wait for her to come up, to stop swaying and to stop torturing her. She eventually got tired and just started shouting at me to do it. To end my life, she was telling me that it wouldn't take away the pain, it would just pass it onto someone and make their life a misery instead. And she was right, the first thing I wanted to do was to end my life, but the last thing I wanted to do was make Y/n's a misery. My legs just crumbled from underneath me and I fell to the ground, as I heard Y/n sigh and start sobbing as she started climbing up the wall repeating my name over and over again, as fast as she could. I could hear other people shouting, glader's probably. But I didn't care, I just lay there, my head lolling to the side. It was like I was unconscious, paralysed would be more specific because I could hear almost everything, I just couldn't, and wouldn't react.

Gally

I was building an accessory to the greenie's new hut when I suddenly saw Y/n run across the glade, from her hut to the walls. I started calling after her when I saw her get too close to the edge, but she didn't even look at me. I was nearing her when she just ran into the maze and I screamed out "Y/N!" And I know she heard it but just didn't turn around. I looked around frantically for anyone who could come with me, but all the people I could convince to help me were Jeff and Clint, Zart, Frypan and Winston, and that was enough. We all rushed through the maze, falling apart with every turn. By the time we had heard Y/n's voice from not far off, Zart and Winston had been lost completely. We were getting closer to Y/n's, I could feel it. All I could hear from her was her, screaming and crying Newt's name, telling him to stop. I was beginning to lose hope, all we were doing was running around in what seemed to be circles and Y/n's desperate voice was driving me insane, just having to listen to it. I just didn't understand why she was calling out his name. We all knew he was dead. Hell, Thomas hasn't come out of his hut since he found out, none of us knew how. But he was dead. I had completely stopped running by now, we all had. The burning sun was scorching our backs and we were all drowning in our own sweat. I turned the same corner as it felt I had done a million times before, and there she was. Y/n was on the floor begging and screaming at something on top of her. I looked up, confused and I saw Newt, the veins in his face were back and his lips were parted in blue. He looked dead... Alive but dead.