Part 1
Newt
Don't ask why I did what I did. Love? I guess that's an excuse. I guess I'm in love. With whom? you ask. The best girl in the world. The best glader in the world. My girlfriend and best friend all at once. My baby. My love. My life, soul and purpose in life. The person that makes me feel nervous and happy at the same time. The person that walks into work every day and makes me sit up straight and stutter while talking. The person who I stare at while there speaking. The person whom I admire every feature on their face while they stand next to me. The person that touches my hand while walking next to me and makes a rush of electricity run down my spine. The person that brushes their hand on my leg and makes me catch my breath. Would you call that love?
I feel like crying. I would do anything for them and it makes me feel sad that they won't stay out of danger. It makes me scared. The possibility that I COULD lose them. As much as I want to, I can't hold them in my arms and make sure they never, ever escape. That they'll never get hurt, physically or mentally, ever. I want to curl up in a ball with them inside. I want to trap them and let them free, all at the same time. That's not normal. I feel like screaming, crying. It's trapped inside me. Ripping my body in two parts, trying to get out. I'm a ticking time bomb. That's what they say. My breaths are heavier, I'm so stressed I could scream. I really, really, really want to. I'm tied up, something over my mouth, legs and arms chained. Trapped inside my own body. A ball of fire ricocheting off the sides of my walls. I'm so calm on the outside, but that's what I feel on the inside. My heart hurts, I know, I KNOW THAT'S NOT POSSIBLE. Aaaggghhh I can't any more, I just can't , I just can't , I just can't
, I just can't , I just can't , I just can't, I just can't , I just can't , I just can't, I just can't , I just can't , I just can't. You wouldn't get it. The mystery of love. The mystery...
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The maze runner: If I live (Newt x reader)
RomanceA story of how 2 people from different sides come together for love (I wrote this 2 years ago and I'm trying to revise it because the spelling's shit, bear with me pls).
