TRIGGERWARNING (The Less Intense Version)

CHAPTER EIGHTEEN VIC

Tuesday&Wednesday

10pm

I looked closer at what she was holding in her hands, those were KO- Drops, I immediately recognized them since an old friend of mine once found a bottle in her boyfriend's bed. I wanted to run, but Hope held me back and told me I was hallucinating from all the alcohol. I looked at my hands to see if I was shaking, I was in fact shaking. Then Hope gave me the last sip of the Vodka bottle we had emptied. I drank it and she opened the next bottle, but then I started feeling dizzy and didn't really know how to move my body anymore. Then I felt like passing out, I thought it was because of my illness but I was so wrong. I woke up the next day and looked around, I was in a bedroom. Then I realized it was my bedroom, I sat straight up and looked at the alarm clock, it was 6am. Why was I here, I thought I was drinking with Hope? Then I remembered the KO-Drops that Hope told me not to worry about. She really had spiked me, I was terrified. Why would she do such things? I also asked myself how she got me back home and how she managed to unlock the door. I grabbed in the pocket of the jeans I had on since yesterday. I knew I had put the key in the left pocket, but it wasn't there. While panicking I tried the other pocket, it luckily was in there. So, Hope had brought me home, however she did that and also took my key. That was more than sick, and I felt like I was in a bad fanfiction. That couldn't be reality, which was just crazy. I checked my phone just to see three texts messaged from Hope saying: "Ha-ha loser, you thought I loved you" and also "Bitch", the last message was "I hope you enjoy your last normal days, 4/9/2021" That was in three days, what would happen there. I tried to figure it out, but my mind couldn't process all of that. I just got back to sleep and thought it was just a bad joke. At 7:32am I woke up again and hoped it all was a bad dream, but sadly it wasn't. I got up had breakfast and got dressed. In school I looked for Hope but couldn't find her, so I just lived through the day like every other one. I was also very excited, because in a few days KI would have my next date, hopefully not an as chaotic and dramatic one though. Still those KO Drops didn't leave my mind, why would you do that? I guessed Hope just wanted to be funny and crossed the limits. I was still afraid of the 4th of September and what would happen to me, but I wanted to live normally since she said, "enjoy you last normal days". The school day went on boring as fuck but as the bells rang, I was faster than Lightning McQueen in a race. I ran to the bus and enjoyed watching the little raindrops on the window. As a kid I always pretended they were doing a race and named them after people I liked. I was always so happy when the most loved one won. I dreamt myself back to those car rides, the races were way more exciting than anything. It hit me so hard, I wanted to be a kid again so badly. But it would never be the same again. No running through flower fields with your best friend or smelling the fresh air after it rained. I felt like I was being pushed down by all of the shitty things that had been happening in the past days. And still I pretend as if it was nothing. I wanted to make myself smile by thinking about being a kid, but I just felt like crying because I wished this time would come back. I wished all of the worries I had would be gone again and I could smile without having to fake it. I wanted to un outside without thinking about how I looked or homework. I wanted to live stress free. Time is and was moving to fast, and you will never be a kid again in your life. All of the time and the memories will begone and you will just get older. I thought about talking to my mom about wanting to grow up, at this moment I wanted to take this back so badly.