TRIGGERWARNING (The Less Intense Version)

CHAPTER SEVEN MAYA

7:20 am

Another morning, but todays morning was horrible. I woke up with a sore throat from yesterdays toilet act, yay, I wasn't excited for school at all. But I still went to my closet, today I wanted to be brave and wear something short to school. I quickly took a shower and shaved, I was so excited about this. From the excessive workouts in the past I was sure I had lost at least 10 pounds, so I could rock that. I opened my closet and picked out my only short top, which was a black slim fit top with green dragons on. Then I took some stretchy pants so at least that would be comfortable. I loved these pants very much, they reminded me of a movie character. The pants were white with a lot of pockets. I looked at myself in the mirror and was stunned, I didn't look like absolute crap. Then I went downstairs to mom and had my daily half slice of bread. I ran to the bus station and wasn't to late for the first time. Today everything was going amazing, anytime this happened I was questioning if something bad was about to happen. I didn't let my thoughts bother me, I got on the bus and drove the three blocks to school. As soon as I left the bus my two best friends Hannah and Amelie came over to me, they looked me up and down ad said nothing. I assumed they were impressed but then they bursted out laughing, I didn't know what was going on. After they had finished laughing Amelie told me : "Girl, do you really wanna be seen like that?" I was devastated to hear this from my so called besties, I ran into school and tried not to think about it. But as soon as I came into class, everyone looked at me. As I sat down I already heard them talking behind my back. I only heard pieces of what the said but some of them were: "Fat" "How could she wear that" and "OMG". As I wanted to turn around and focus on my school stuff, I heard a male voice saying: " She looks cute" I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I turned to the person I thought the voice belonged to, it was Kyle. He was Averys boyfriend so I thought he was talking about her, but then I saw that Avery wasn't even in class yet. Did the best looking boy of the class just compliment me? Me, the fat girl. I couldn't believe my ears. As I looked Kyle in the eyes I could swear I saw a little grin on his face. I turned around blushing, did this actually happen. As I was sorting my thoughts the teacher came in and told us to stay in our seats. In my head the Alarm signals turned on, my first thought was "Is there another shooting?" We sat in those seats for an eternity, until the teachers called us down to the basement. We were shaking in fear, no one really knew what was going on. Then the headteacher came into the basements and told us it was all just a training. We were furious about how much fear we had and that it was all just a training. But still no one really confronted the teachers because we had just skipped two periods which meant we had 20 min break. I was at my table as Kyle came over and said:" Hey Maya right? I don't want anyone to know I told you this, but you look really good in this outfit. Do you wanna hang out with me and the boys later?" I was shocked, then I settled myself and said: O-of course I would like to, but what about Avery. If she finds this out I will be dead." He kept cool and replied: "She doesn't need to know everything, right?" Then Kyle told me were to meet him and when, I agreed and as he walked away her winked at me. I felt like I had butterflies in my stomach, did the hottest guy in class really just ask me out? I was absolutely confused, but I immediately called my mom and told her I would be hanging out with Amelie in the park today. She said I could go, but only if I came back before midnight, that shouldn't be to hard. I was so excited, I wanted to go now already, but sadly we still had eight long periods ahead of us. The rest of the day I was daydreaming about what would happen. Then the most important question came to my head, " What if he likes me, does he want to cheat on Avery with me" But I immediately forgot about this again, he would date me, I'm not even half as hot as Avery. I couldn't believe my own thoughts, Kyle would never cheat on his perfect girl. Even though I tried my hardest to forget about the love thing, I couldn't get it out of my head. I was the fat girl, no one could love me. Then I woke up from my daydream as Mrs. Morion said my name repeatedly. She asked me to draw a linear function, I got up and stared at the ground so I couldn't see the laughing people. I drew the function perfectly and sat down again. I was shaking since I didn't even pay attention to what she said earlier. As soon as I was back in my chair I continued daydreaming. The hours flew by and then it was finally time to go home. I immediately got ready at home and put on my favourite perfume and accessories.