TRIGGERWARNING (The Less Intense Version)

CHAPTER FOURTEEN ELLIOT

4:22 am
Tuesday&Wednesday
Oh god, I didn’t know what to do anymore. I hadn’t slept in about five days; I was so stressed because of my Stepdad. He hadn’t returned from work ever since he found out that my mom knew. I heard her crying every night and felt so fucking bad for her. I hadn’t talked to her since Friday, I didn’t know what to say. If I said I was sorry I would lie if I said he deserved it, she wouldn’t like that. I knew she wanted me to be safe, but I also didn’t want her to be sad. I seriously thought about running away, I had already packed my bags and whenever I wanted to, I could just leave. Mom could be with her husband since he had no child to hit, he would be kind and maybe also comeback. And I would go somewhere to start a new life. While staring at the ceiling I said to myself. End your mother’s pain and just go. So, I stood up and got dressed, my mom was asleep I knew that for sure. I got my luggage, it contained: 20 Shirts, 10 pants, 2 Binders, 300$ from my leftover money and 800$ from my last paycheck from work, then I also had 3 Power banks, A charger, and some Coupons from restaurants or stores. I started crying when I thought about leaving this house, it was full of memories and I did not want to go, still I had to do it for my mom. I packed some underwear and got some food from the kitchen. I also took some carboard and a blanket with me. Then I went to my shoes on tippytoes, put them on a quietly as possible and left the house. I didn’t know where to go but I just went straight ahead. As I arrived at the bridge, I concluded that I would sleep there tonight, but there were two drunks as hell girls sitting and laughing. And holy crap one took nude pics of the other one. I turned away and continued my journey, after fifteen minutes of walking I finally left town. Now no one would recognize me anymore. I chose the closest park bench to sleep on. But of course, I couldn’t sleep, it was way to cold and hard. Even though I had put cardboard on it, I took my phone out which was on 45%, great so the mission for the next day was going to be: Find a public charging spot. Wherever you could find these, I didn’t know either, so I just checked Instagram and eventually fell asleep for the first time. My luggage was hidden in two big bushes so no homeless person would consider stealing it. I then realised I was a homeless person now too, wow I had played myself. At least I was finally able to fall asleep, but I woke up at 7 in the morning again because a lot of people were doing there morning walk or some shit. So, I got up put my blanket away and got on my phone which now only had 29%, I had seven missed calls from mom and a lot of text messages too. I ignored them and also turned my phone GPS off so no one could find me. I went into the next best gas station and asked them if I could charge there, the guy said yes but it cost me 5$, that was a lot for charging, but I needed it. After one and a half hours of walking through the park, I went back to the gas station and got my fully charged phone back. Now I checked it, my mom had texted me again. I still ignored it, but deep inside I was really sad.