may/2/2022, 11:20 PM
my heart bleeds endlessly
the blood pours onto my hands
it reminds me that
no matter how much i try to run
the darkness is still there
slowly eating away my core
until one day there is nothing left
i seek a solution
i come up with one but still ask for help
but whoever i ask seems to have something different in mind
and so my solutions are never correct
this has led me to believe that they all try fixing me
as if i were broken
even though i try convincing myself it's not true
a part of my mind never grew up
and it is scared
perhaps this is why i am always so silent
i hear people say their words of advice
but instead i understand things that are wrong with me
i've never been right once in my life when it comes to myself
i am always wrong
and though i understand that they simply want to help
i don't need it
i just need someone to hold me and say
"they're wrong"
"you're right"
"it's okay"
"you aren't the problem"
"i'm here and i'm proud of you"
"you are not broken and i love you"
i want them to say it even if it's a lie
in reality
i want someone to look at me in the eye
to see deep into my soul
to see all the dark an ugly things
i want someone to see how physically and emotionally flawed i am
i want someone to see all my weaknesses
and choose to love me despite all that
i want someone to choose me
despite all the flaws
a simple request
with no one to receive it
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midnight thoughts
Randomthe things i write when i can't sleep no idea when this will update, it kinda just happens the date shown when the chapter starts is when i wrote it