apr./9/2023, 2:28 AM
i know i often write like an incredible poet
conveying such intense feelings and emotions
portraying experiences and stories in incredible ways
i know people consider me a good poet
and as much inspiration i have
sometimes that dries up too
my motivation and energy are drained often
and so i can't quite find the right words to write
but the urge is still there
"keep on writing," i hear a voice say
"never stop, keep going"
and i suppose it works sometimes, much like now
i force myself to write
even if just a little
keeping all this emotion bottled up will only create a poem of chaos
so i try to write
maybe whatever first comes to mind
of course, that being none other than you
you're a very good muse, you know
you've give me so much to write about
you've made me feel something that no one has been able to make me feel before
not even her
i don't know how to describe it
but it's a good feeling
it's warm
much like your embrace which i miss so terribly
all our moments, good and bad,
they inspire me
and so i write about you
perhaps as a way for me to remember
so that i never forget the good times we've had
or maybe as a way for me to never forget why i love you
even if you hurt me
this feeling is so powerful
it's overwhelming at times
but for you it's all worth it
and that does scare me sometimes
it's new
something i've never felt before
and it makes me scared
i don't know what to do with it
i have no words for it
no experiences
no memories
so what do i do with a feeling i wish to convey but don't even know how to name?
even with you it leaves me silent
merely your presence is enough to spark a chain of emotion in me
you leave me speechless every time
i don't think i'll ever be to accurately describe what this feels like
but
i think it's all the love i have for you
combined with the horrifying thought of losing you
YOU ARE READING
midnight thoughts
Randomthe things i write when i can't sleep no idea when this will update, it kinda just happens the date shown when the chapter starts is when i wrote it