feb./16/2023, 10:39 PM
human connection is a very intricate thing
quite complex, like our brains
we seek connection as if it were a survival instinct
because, in truth, it is
we look for places where we belong
where we can feel accepted
where we won't be useful
often, that is how groups form
society is built upon this unspoken rule
and within these large groups
there are individuals who, despite finding the sense of belonging they so longed for,
still desire a deeper connection
not only do we look for a place in the world,
but we also look to prove that we are not alone
we look for love in corners where not even life can sprout
i am but a mere human
constricted by these ideals of humanity
i, too, am bound to look for that connection
that unique, selfless connection we call love
and i do look
everywhere i go
the leaves,
the trees,
the buildings,
the sounds of people laughing,
of passing cars,
of birds flapping and singing their morning call
and perhaps for a fleeting moment i feel it
a shred of love for the world
so large and cruel yet so full of affection
even in the cracks of the earth that split deep into its nucleus
but still, it is not enough
the world is not mine
i am but a passerby of time
from the dirt i rose
and to the dirt i shall return one day
such is the cycle
i know it all too well
yet i persist
perhaps out of desperation
i search and i search
i seek the connection that will finally make me feel like i was worth something
like i was more than a creature of the land
and though it took me many long years to find
i found you
in my darkest times,
where i thought there was nothing left for me,
you arrived at the most unexpected time
it took me by surprise
and at first i did not accept it
i refused to taint you with my blood
however,
what i did not notice
is that we are both tainted by the swords of time
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midnight thoughts
Randomthe things i write when i can't sleep no idea when this will update, it kinda just happens the date shown when the chapter starts is when i wrote it