John POV
I'm an asshole! I'm s fucking Cheater! How could I do this to Alex?! He's gonna hate me! He'll leave me. But I can't not tell him. That's even worse.
Frances is still asleep. I've move out of his arms snd pick up my phone. Damn it, like 3 miss calls from Alex and a bunch of texts. I walk into another room so I don't wake Frances then I call Alex back.
He answers straight away "John? Why weren't you answering you're usually awake by now" his voice is shaky
"I'm sorry baby; what happened are you ok? You don't sound ok" I replied
"Can.. can you just come over please? I know I'm been a dick to you recently but I need you right now, you're the only person I really trust" I says softly.
Well fuck way to make me feel worse. "Of course, I'll be there as soon as I can" he thanks me then hangs up. I quickly changed into some clothes and walks out. I can't drive yet so I take the bus
I eventually arrive at Alex's place and knock on the door. He opens it and smiles a little. I walks in snd hug him "what happens Lex? Are you ok?" I ask
I will tell him eventually just not right now. He sighs and holds onto me "I'm sorry.. I know I'm just overreacting but today's 5 years since my mum died..."
"Oh.. Lex no you're not overreacting" he keep hugging him snd kiss his cheek. "Skip school today ok? I'll stay with you"
He nods a bit "thank you John" he refuses to let go of me. This hurts so much, I hate seeing him upset, I hate that I cheated on him.. hes doesn't deserve this.
We stay cuddling for a while until he finally speaks up "thank you for being here.. you're always here when I need you even if I'm being a dick. I'll try to be around for you more I promise. You're so perfect and.. John I lov-"
"Alex stop.. Please stop I have to tell you something" he looks at me confused "last night.. me snd Frances were hanging out.. snd he made me think that you were ghosting me..and I-" my eyes fill with tears "I cheated on you" i choke out
Alex freezes for a second then shakes his head "what like you kisses? That's ok I kiss Eliza so ok" he said smiling, snd obviously strained smile.
"N-no..I-it was more than a kiss" I reply and look at him. "Alex.. I am so so sorry, I've never felt his bad about anything in my life. I love you Alex.. this morning all I could think about was you and how happy you make me a-and I'm so so sorry.."
Alex just sits there for a moment. He takes a deep breath and lays down on his bed "I want you to stay here and hold me until tomorrow" he says
"Wh- really you're not mad and upset?" I ask confused
"Oh no I am but I don't want to deal with that now so just fucking hold me" he replies. I sigh and nod and lays next to him snd hold him
we stay like that in silence for awhile until I he him crying softly. "A-Alex?" I ask
"I think you should leave now" I whispers so quietly its barely Audible. I nod a little a get up.
"Alex.. I am really so so sorry I hope you know that" I said. He just moves away from me. I sigh and get him "I'll see you tomorrow I guess.."
He ignores me. I look down at my feet and walk out. I take a bus back home, Frances is gone, good. I walks into my room and lock the door then fall on the bed.
I hate myself, how could I do this to him?! Before I know it I fall asleep crying
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High school- lams
FanfictionJohns new at the school and the first thing he leaned is 'avoid the popular kids' that would have been easy is there wasn't one that was extremely attractive Alexander Hamilton was the most popular guy in school, he was dating Eliza Schuyler, The m...
