Death Note || Phan

~ Chapter 17 ~

Chapter 17

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Dan sat nervously in the kitchen, fingers tapping against his mug. "I have to say I am very surprised Dan. You looked ready to rid the world of criminals only a few days ago. Now you've gone all soft." Ryuk sighed, "How boring."

"I don't care what you think Ryuk." Dan replied flatly and took a sip of his tea.

"Hmph, you never did." He smirked and turned his head as Phil padded into the room with pyjama bottoms and one of Dan's old t-shirts on. He had a smile on his face that made Dan's heart flutter and sink at the same time. 

Phil sat down across from him, taking the second mug of tea Dan had made for him. There was a moment of silence as Dan prepared to speak. "So Phil ..." He started, feeling his palms begin to sweat. 

"Yeah?" Phil coaxed, looking at Dan curiously. "Is he going to ask me out?" Phil thought hopefully. "Or is he going to say it was all a mistake?"

"First of all, we've both been keeping secrets from each other, haven't we Phil?" Dan asked, looking him straight in the eyes with a serious expression.

Phil's eyes widened and his heart beat sped up, "He couldn't possibly know- no! He's talking about my feelings right? What if he's not ..." Phil thought in panic. "I don't know what you mean Dan." Phil replied, trying to sound convincing.

Dan sighed, his eyebrows creasing down at his mug in frustration. "Well this is actually quite interesting." Ryuk cackled, the only one not taking the situation seriously. 

"Phil ... I know that you're L." Dan stated.

Phil's blood ran cold and his eyes went even wider. "Oh fuck." Phil thought in panic. "How the hell did he find out? Does he know that I've been suspecting him as Kira? Oh god, what if he hates me?" Phil looked at Dan's face in terror of what he would do next. Can he try convince him otherwise? No Dan looked like he was up for no bullshit. 

"H-how did you know?" Phil finally stuttered out.

Dan sighed and gave Phil a guilty look. "I was walking by your room when you were talking to my father. You were talking about the Kira case ..." Dan trailed off, his eyes averting Dan's gaze.

"Oh shit fuck shit." Phil thought in worry. "Is he upset? Is he angry? Why has he got that look on his face? What the hell do I do?" Phil didn't say anything - just looked at Dan in shock.

"I'm sorry I listened in on you and I'm not mad at you ... I was just surprised. I wanted to get my feelings off my chest last night before I talked to you seriously about this as well as something else that I'll explain in a minute ... I'm sorry if you're angry at me." Dan apologised, looking up at Phil with an apologetic gaze. Honestly the look was pretty cute and even made Phil blush. 

"I-I'm not mad. I'm just surprised, are you sure you're okay with it?" Phil asked.

"Yeah ... now Phil, what I'm about to tell you might come off as a shock. Just ... hear me out okay. It's okay if you hate me afterwards because I wouldn't blame you - sometimes I hate me." Dan explained, looking scared.

Phil wanted to wipe the scared expression off Dan's face and hold him close but he needed to stay even a little bit professional because Dan looked incredibly serious and there was a gnawing anxiety in the pit of Phil's stomach that told him it wasn't going to be good.  

"Phil ... I'm Kira." Dan stated, looking Phil straight in the eyes.

Phil's heart skipped a beat and his mouth fell open. "No ..." Phil thought in heart break. Not Dan ... not his precious, perfect, goofy, amazing Dan. Phil went through emotions of horror, sadness, betrayal, anxiety, fear and also protectiveness. Although he didn't agree with Dan's actions he felt the need to protect Dan and not let anyone near him. Half the world was after him and Phil had nearly gotten Dan found out. Actually they was on the verge of finding out. "Oh god Dan." Phil sighed closing his eyes in disbelief.

"I'm sorry Phil ..." Dan whispered, feeling properly ashamed for the first time since he obtained the Death Note.  He felt tears in his eyes and he couldn't stop some from leaking out. He held in his sob - he had disappointed Phil - the one person who was most important to him.

"This is getting too sentimental." Ryuk grumbled from the corner of the kitchen. Dan gave a slight glare in his direction but didn't look long because his eyes were full of tears. "Ok, fine I'll go." He huffed and left the room.

Phil opened his eyes at Dan's words and stared in horror at the tears falling down Dan's cheeks. He hated seeing Dan crying - it was one of the things he hated most in the world. Without thinking about it, he jumped to his feet and walked round the table to Dan. He pulled the younger boy out of his chair and into a hug, resting the side of his head against Dan's.  "Oh Dan." Phil sighed again, stroking Dan's hair. 

Dan was shocked to be pulled into Phil's embrace but hugged him back tightly. He didn't know what it meant - maybe it was an apology for him then having to call authorities and send him to jail - or maybe Phil really did love him. "I have so many questions." Phil whispered.

"I bet you do." Dan chuckled, hugging him tighter. "Do you hate me?" Dan asked, feeling vulnerable.

"No Dan ... I don't think I could ever hate you. I'm just ... confused." Phil sighed.

"I'm going to tell you everything Phil - even if you end up sending me to jail in the end. I'm just sick of lying to you." Dan sighed.

"Dan ... is that really a good idea?" Phil asked. "What if they found out and-"

"Then as a detective it's your responsibility to tell them." Dan muttered, his voice full of defeat. "It's okay, I didn't expect to get away with it anyway."

"No." Phil said sternly, his grip tightening on Dan. "I won't let them touch you ... if they do you'll die." Phil explained with fear in his voice. 

"I-I ... I love you Phil." Dan stuttered. Phil froze in Dan's grip. Even though Dan knew he was L and he was Kira he still told Phil because he loved him. The thought made Phil grin because there was no way he'd ever let them take or hurt Dan. He loved him just as much. Phil would have probably done the same if he found out Dan was Kira first.

"I love you too Dan." Phil sighed, pulling away a little to kiss him passionately. Dan immediately kissed back, wrapping his arms around Phil's neck. "And I'll support whatever decision you make ... although we need to talk about the killing." Phil warned, resting his head on Dan's.

"I know." He sighed. Dan pulled away from the embrace and took Phil's hand. He lead him towards his bedroom which was locked. He unlocked the handle, took out the lead and picked up the piece of paper as it fell to the floor. Phil watched in fascination at Dan's caution and followed him inside his room which he had rarely seen. It was surprisingly tidy and study papers were laid out neatly on his desk. Phil followed him in and took a seat on his bed. 

"So ... how do you do it?" Phil asked awkwardly.

"I'll show you." Dan said but Phil misinterpreted what he said.

"Wait WHAT? You're not going to kill anyone are you?" Phil asked in panic.

"No, I'm just showing you how." Dan explained and Phil frowned. How would he show him? Wouldn't he need a demonstration? Doesn't he have a super power or something? Phil watched curiously as Dan pressed something under his desk. After a click was heard Dan pulled the drawer of his desk out and lifted the false bottom up. He lifted out a black notebook before closing everything again.

He looked at Phil nervously before making his way over to him, biting his lip. He sat down next to Phil with the book in his hand. He traced the front with his finger before turning to his best friend. "This is the Death Note"

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