She Devil | ✔︎

Forty-seven.

Right now, life isn't going well. It isn't flawless. However, knowing that I have Kenji beside me gives me hope that even awful people deserve a second shot.

When we both woke up today, he finally asked me out on a date, saying he wanted to surprise me and take me somewhere. I got up, had a shower, and went to the gym for the rest of the day.

I couldn't stop myself from cracking a stupid grin. I have butterflies in my stomach all the time. It's an odd sensation, but I like it. He has had a significant influence on me.

I'm completely falling for him; what if he asks me to be his girlfriend today? I need to double-check that everything is in order, especially my seductive attire.

It's my first date ever. I should probably tell Evelyn but she'd go all psycho on me and start taking me shopping, ill just tell her once we're back.

Massimo, on the other hand, has been pestering me about his boyfriend all day. Yes, boyfriend, he's gay, and I'm fine with it; in fact, I'm proud of him and accept him for who he is.

He has the freedom to love whomever he wants. After all, love doesn't knock on the door and ask for permission; instead, it barges in uninvited.

And that's one of the things I like about it: you might fall in love with someone you never expected to, which makes it epic.

My phone begins to ring, and I see Kenji's name on the screen. I have a habit of picking up the phone too quickly. "Hey," I respond, panting, "Ciao, Amore Mio," his rich husky voice murmurs across the phone, and I feel my stomach flutter.

Translation: Hi, my love.

"What are you doing?" he asks, "I just completed sparring," I look around the gym room. "How about you?" I retort. "I just finished some work." He huffs boredly.

work as in killing people.

I decide to hang up and get ready after we talk for a while.

He said he'd pick me up at 8, it's now 6, so I'll have about 2 hours to shower, wash my hair, shave, dress, apply makeup, and style my hair. I don't care who says otherwise, being a woman is extremely difficult.

I finish all of that and sneak into Evelyn's room, where I choose one of her many red sundresses. I'm not a great admirer of dresses, but Kenji advised me to wear one and keep my hair up.

I put on some simple makeup and lip gloss, grab my purse, and exit the room after Kenji says he's outside. I say my goodbyes to Gio the guard, and begin walking outside.

I notice Kenji standing in front of one of his many vars, La Voiture Noire. dressed in his suit with his hair sleeked back and his charming smile on his face. My heart thumps in my chest as I stand in front of him.

"La mia belle ragazza," He murmurs and leans in to take my lips in his, as my hands rush to his neck, savoring the flavor of his lips, which I can't get enough of.

Translation: My beautiful girl.

He opens the passenger door for me to get in, I fasten my seatbelt as he gets in, and the car speeds away from the estate to who knows where.

Half of the time his hands are on my thigh stroking circles while he steals glances at me, I shiver as his cold rings make contact with my skin.

He gets off the wheel and removes his rings, which he lays on my fingers; they're a little large but still lovely, and I trace the symbol K.J on one of the snake-shaped rings. "I like it," I exclaim, awestruck.

"Keep it," he says, and my head whips to his. "Really?" I ask, double-checking, and he nods. "Anything that belongs to me is yours." He squeezes the back of my thigh.

I never expected to be entirely engulfed by another until he grasped my hand and led me out of the darkness, demonstrating that whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same.

My brows wrinkle as we come to a halt in the middle of nowhere. Is he going to kill me? "No, I'm not," he chuckled as he exited the car.

I fucking said it out loud.

He opens the door and takes my hand in his as we proceed into a cave; I keep a close eye on my surroundings in case something unexpected appears.

We finally make it out of the cave and onto the shore after a long hike. How on earth did we wind up on a beach? I see a mat with candles, champagne, and blankets in front of me.

"This is amazing," I say back to Kenji with a big smile on my face. I close my eyes and enjoy the breeze on my face. I feel his hands around my waist and his chest against my back as.

We continue to stay like that for a moment before he pulls me down to cuddle with him while sipping our champagne and covering us with the duvet.

"Why don't you show the good side of yourself to the world?"I ask, "Because people expect good when they seem excellent, and I don't want to live up to anyone's expectations," after a while, he replies.

I'm astonished that a human being can comprehend my emotions.

"I truly like you, Kenji, and it's like I'm pulled to everything you do or say in any way," I admit to being relieved that it was finally out of my system.

He doesn't respond, instead of kissing my forehead and playing with my hair. Is it possible that I made a mistake? I messed up our first date even before it started.

"What do you see yourself doing in the future?" I try to save myself from further embarrassment, "kids, I want kids." is all he says and I feel my heart drop to my stomach.

he wants kids.

I can't have kids.

As I rise and arrange my clothes, the air around us shifts. "We should leave," I murmur, gazing around. "why," he says as he furrows his brows, "I'm tired," I say and walk away, leaving him behind.

I am a complete moron. Of course, he wants children. He's the mafia boss, and he needs an heir. He will marry a woman who will bear him children, but it will not be me. He claims that having children is the only thing that makes him happy.

we don't get what we want after all.

I know I shouldn't be unhappy since technically we aren't a thing, we aren't lovers or together, but he kept asking if he did something wrong on the way back, and I just kept repeating no.

As soon as we get back I go to my room, lock the door, and go to bed.