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tw/depression, anxiety, eds, s*lf harm and s*idcidal thoughts

Hi it's been a while since I updated, I'm not taking a break nor going on haitus just very slow updates for now, to be completely honest for the past few months has been hell to me, I was doing very with staying clean but I broke my cycle and I've been very on edge and it's all I think off, my depression really isn't getting any better and I want it to, I want to feel and be happy, I just need someone to understand a little more, the anxiety for school coming closer and closer wants me to off myself, I'm really struggling and home and now at school, I hate it.

My room is getting messier I'm already preparing for school in order to get good grades, I'm over working myself everything is stressful, school work dieting, I don't even feel like eating half the time anymore, everyday I seem to get a panic attack of end up having g mental breakdown, I don't even know how to feel right now, everything is just numb

I'm sorry, I shouldn't be over sharing on social media again, I can't help but only think inflicting pain on me will make everything better, I want to give up really, I've lost all my friends and the people who I should love have always and never will be supportive of me, I hate my body I hate how I came out as, I wish I was the perfect daughter my parents asked for, I don't even love what I wanna do anymore.

I'm sorry if this trigger you, I really am, please don't feel bad, I'm trying I really am, but the only thing keeping me alive is the fact u have to look after my siblings I can't bare to know anything could happen to them, there my only hope, and that's what I need rn some sort of security in life, someone to hug but I don't have that,

I'll update as soon as I can, yin