Once In A Lifetime (Life Struggle Series #1) COMPLETED

Chapter 26

Ending your life is a mistake to narrow minded person. Deciding to stop receiving pain and choosing to be at peace feels like a crime. But factually speaking, wanting to be dead is not a crime and will never be a crime. Bakit nila ipagkakait ang natatanging solution sa walang katapusang problemang ibinibigay ng mundo? Is it bad to take a rest after these exhausting years?

Bakit bawal magpahinga ang isang tao? They had enough of fighting. They had enough of all the bullshits of life.

Siguro ay sapat na ang mga taon na paghihirap. Panahon na para pagbigyan naman nila ang kanilang sarili, 'di ba? They did nothing but live their life.

"L-lola."

I gasped for air but I still continue running like a prey hiding from its predator.

Pinagtitinginan na ako ng mga tao, nagtataka kung bakit ako tumatakbo habang umiiyak at gulo-gulo ang buhok but I didn't mind them. I didn't even take a glace in their direction. I completely lost my mind.

"Baliw na ang batang iyon..." pagkatapos ay tumawa sila.

Mas lalo lang akong naiyak. They laughed at my misery. They enjoy seeing me suffering.

That explains everything. May mga tao na gugustuhing makita ang kahinaan mo hindi dahil gusto ka nilang tulungan, kundi para pagtawanan ka. Your lowest states are their happy states. Mas pipiliin nilang pagtawanan ka kaysa intindihin ang iyong sitwasyon.

"Lola!" iyak kong sigaw.

I finally reached my destination. I weep in front of my Lola's house like a grieving mother. Her neighbors were looking at me confusedly.

"A-apo... Jassy?"

Mabilis n'yang binuksan ang gate ng kan'yang bahay. I quickly run to her. Napadapa ako sa harapan n'ya. I kneeled in front of her.

"L-lola. Tulungan mo ako."

Dumapa rin siya para mapantayan ako. She looked at me with pity in her eyes.

"A-ano ba ang nangyayari? May humahabol ba sa iyo? Sino?" nag-aalala n'yang tanong.

I shook my head. Hindi sino, kundi ano. Problem is catching me.

"La...Itakas mo na ako. Ayoko na rito. A-ayoko na, La."

I wanted to disappea. I wanted to hide from the people who know me.

I was about to stop myself from breathing earlier but Lady came to our house. Mabuti na lang ay hindi n'ya nakita ang lubid sa aming palikuran.

That's when I realized that the world will still deprive me of resting. Kaya naisipan kong tumakas na lang at magpakalayo-layo.

Hindi ko na kasi kaya. Sobrang bigat na.

"Calm down. Let's talk inside..." she reached both of my hands and make me stand. Sumunod ako sa kan'ya na parang tuta.

She sighed and looked deeply into my eyes, "What happened?"

I started telling her what happened. I told her everything, from the start until the end. Hirap na hirap pa akong ikwento sa kan'ya ang mga nangyari sa buhay ko. I don't want to talk about it anymore because I feel like I went back to being a kid again. Iyong bata na maagang namulat sa totoong kahulugan ng buhay. Ang batang Jassy na nakatikim ng sampal at paninipa galing sa kan'yang magulang. I was traumatized by those memories.

"Please help me to... run away," pagmamakaawa ko.

She nodded slowly, "Tutulungan ka ni Lola, okay? Don't worry."

Pagkatapos naming mag-usap ni Lola ay kumalma na ang sistema ko. Ipinagpahinga n'ya ako. She let me rest in one of her guests room.

I heaved a heavy sigh. Sana ay maintindihan ng mga tao sa paligid ko kung bakit ako aalis lalong lalo na ang kapatid kong si Fatima. She might assume I abandoned her.