I love you but I'm not good enough

CHAPTER TWELVE- THE EX

Y/n's pov:

"Go away Leo." I told him and started to walk away from him but he followed. "Why did u break up with me again? Oh right because ur in love with that thing." I turned to look at him "don't be so rude and his name is Erik." Leo rolled his eyes "get back with me we were so good together." He came in front of me "yeah I think I will pass." I started to run away from him at this point. "Oh baby come back I miss u I didn't mean anything, I'm a famous actor now."

I turned to face him "I could care less, I'm not getting back with u I've already been there once." I turned back round and walked off but he grabbed my wrist "ur gonna regret that." He came up close into my face "get back with me or I tell everyone about ur little crush." I laughed at him "what little crush I have none?" He rolled his eyes "stop being so fcking stubborn I know u wanna get back together. What's Erik got? Nothing he is just a worry all little man, u need a strong man like me."

"What did u just say about Erik?" I asked irritated "I said u need a strong man not someone weak like him." What u guys didn't know was that Erik was listening the whole time.

Erik's pov:

What if Leo is correct? I can't be with Y/n even if I did have feelings for her, I don't have feelings do I? I can't have feelings for her she's to good for me it would never work. As I walked home a million thoughts came into my head, as I arrived back home I saw Lyle getting stuff from his car. "Hi little bro" he said but I ignored him and walked straight upstairs.

My dad was in the kitchen, "ERIK COME HERE NOW!" He shouted yet again ignored him and continued my way upstairs. "BRAT UR DAD CALLED U." My mom shouted but I just closed my door. And went to sit on my bed. I started to cry and my sobs became louder and louder until I heard banging on my door. I opened it to be met with a punch in the stomach from my dad.

"No child of mine cries, ur a weak soul u will never get a girlfriend if u cry real men don't." He continued to punch and kick me, until he finished. I knew that later tonight he would come back to me. Imagine if I had a different family, obviously me and Lyle would still be brothers, just different parents ones who didn't abuse us. I layed down on my bed and just stared at the ceiling. In the corner of my eye I saw my phone light up.

Y/n❤️
Hi Erik, I just wanted to check if u were ok x
Read at 7:50pm
Y/n❤️
Erik? Are u there?
Read at 7:52pm

I know leaving her on read was a bad thing to do but I couldn't face texting her at this moment in time. My dad walked in and everything went in slow motion. The pain growing throughout my body, thinking about when all this pain would be over. I could take it anymore. Finally he finished, and walked out. I went over to my window and saw Y/n's room lit up by her led lights. I smiled to myself, "I love her so much." I said to myself "who do u love so much e?" Lyle made me jump.

"Oh I,I no one." Lyle looked across to Y/n's room "u love Y/n?" I put my hand on his mouth. "I don't know but I think so." His eyes lit up and he squeezed me "u don't how long I've waited for this. So how are u gonna ask her out?" I looked at him "woah I'm not asking her out this is just between u and me." He stood up "u need to tell her how u feel before it's too late." I shook my head "no I can't tell her." Lyle came towards me "and why is that?" I looked at him then down at the floor "I'm not good enough for her." Lyle wrapped his arms around me. "Don't be silly of course u are."

Y/n's Pov:

After texting Erik, I put my phone away and went to sit at my desk. I got my private diary out and started to write in it,
August 6th

I think I have a crush on Erik, actually I don't think I know I do. He's way better than Leo and he will treat like the lady I am. But he said himself that he is still with Tracey. So it probably won't go anywhere than just a little crush.

I closed my diary and put it away "Y/N DINNER IS READY." Joey shouted "COMING." I shouted back and headed downstairs. "Where's Isabelle." I shrugged my shoulders "ISABELLE COME DOWN." We heard little footsteps running. She was holding something "what's that?" I asked "ur diary." I chocked on the food, Joey smirked "what did it say?" He asked "she has a crush on the boy called Erik from next door." "I KNEW IT." Joey shouted

"So how long?" I looked at him "not that long." Joey looked at me "u have my blessing but just no freaky freaky." I rolled my eyes. Then we continued to eat dinner.