SMS #1: Eros in Taboo (Book 1) [COMPLETED]

Chapter 18

~Talk~

Naging mailap ang kaniyang mga mata matapos kong sumagot. Binitiwan niya rin agad ako na para akong isang live wire na maaari siyang kuryentehin. His jaw clenched. He murmured a curse after. Did he regret it?

"Fuck it, baby. I'm sorry. I didn't know. I'm just, I'm just... fucked up!''

Puno ng pagsisisi ang mukha niya, maging ang pagkataranta. Nakagat ko ang aking pang-ibabang labi habang tinitingnan siya. He did. Pinagsisihan niya iyon!

He didn't mean, he just fucked up, that's why he did that. Hinilot niya ang kaniyang sentido. Tila ang problema nito ay parang lulubog na ang kompanya. Pain stabbed my chest.

It hurts.

I don't even know why. I don't hella know! Naramdaman ko ang panunubig ng aking mata. Priapus started panicking when he saw it. He's trying to hold me and immediately stopped himself before he can eventually touch me

"Aoife, baby. I-I'm sorry. I didn't mean it. I mean-"

Tuluyan na akong umiyak. Parang may ipo-ipong nangyayari sa aking utak na nagpagulo sa akin. Tumingala ako sa kaniya at pilit na inaaninag ang mukha niya sa kabila ng mga luhang malayang umaagos sa aking pisngi. He looks horrified. Lalong umigting ang kaniyang panga. Ginulo rin niya at sinabunutan ang buhok, bago tumingala na parang kinakalma ang sarili. He then looked at me.

Ang kaniyang mata ay namumungay na ngayon at ang mukha naman nito ay may guhit ng takot at pagkataranta.

''I didn't mean to scare you Aoife. I didn't mean it-''

''You... didn't mean it?'' I asked weakly behind my sobs. I tightly clenched my fist. The pain I felt was unbearable. Agad siyang umiling, puno na ngayon ng pagsisisi ang kaniyang mukha. He licked his lower lip.

"I didn't mean it-fuck! I'm-"

''B-but I like it!'' I said in an almost desperate voice.

Panandalian siyang natigilan. Muling umigting ang kaniyang panga. Mas lalo lamang akong naiyak.

I'm crying because it hurts. I'm crying because I don't know why I feel like this. I'm crying because I like that kissed and he regretted it. I'm crying and hurting because I love the feeling and I know it is so wrong to love it!

Oh my god!

Gusto kong sabunutan ang sarili dahil sa mga iniisip. Dammit! Dammit, Aeliana! Andaming lalaki riyan!

Nang makita kong bumuka ang labi ni Priapus para magsalita ay agad kong tinakpan ang aking tainga at pumikit nang mariin.

Sinabayan ko na rin ang pagsasalita niya sa pamamagitan nang pagsigaw ko upang huwag siyang marinig. I don't want to listen to him. This feelings is too much for me. Ayaw ko ng dagdagan.

''Get out. Please, get out!'' Muli kong iminulat ang aking mata. Ang panibagong luha ay muling naglandas sa aking pisngi.

Kita ko sa mukha niya ang halo-halong emosyon. Mabilis kong pinahid ang aking mga luha at tiningnan siya ng masama. He looks in pain but I couldn't care less.

Lumapit ako sa kaniya at pinaghahampas siya sa dibdib and he just let me.

Masyadong magulo ang utak ko. I cry harder because he just let me hit him. Buong lakas ko siyang itinulak. Still crying!

"Get out. I don't want to see you anymore. I hate you. I hate you!''

He let me pushed him towards the door. Nanatiling nakaigting ang kaniyang panga. His eyes are red. I hurriedly open the door and pushed him outside. I slammed the door right on his face after.