I woke up and I was all wrapped in Nicki's arms.
I jumped up.
"Aw shit ima be late," I checked my phone and Jay was blowing me up again.
Jay
Where tf you at
Bey you betta get yo ass here right now
What you wit sum nigga
You gon make me kill yo ass
Once I see you you coming home with me bitch
"Fuck," I murmured to myself as I started to stress out. I began to over think. I was very nervous but I know I have to go back regardless of how nice it felt here. I felt normal and appreciated.
I tried to control my breathing, I checked through my emails as a tear or two fell. I turned and sat off the edge of my bed.
"Hey," Nicki's voice was low considering she just woke up
"Hi," I tried to clear mine up
She rubbed my back but I didn't turn around. I rubbed my eyes quickly before I did.
"You okay?" Her voice was filled with concern
I nodded, "yeah I just gotta," I held my phone up
"Work,"
"I don't wanna hold you hostage here but you're always welcome, okay?" she reached up and touched my face
"You've been crying?" She asked
I nodded again
"Why?" She began to sit up and I could tell her concern was continuing to grow
"No reason um I just got a couple of messages from Jay is all," I didn't want to say too much to upset her
"I can take care of him," her voice was steady
"No, no I don't want you to do anything that could harm him," I chuckled as I looked down
I hate that she was willing to murk someone for me so quickly.
"Let me see,"
"See?"
"What he sent,"
I was scared to show her. I'm not sure how she'd react, I don't want him to act differently towards him at rehearsals or say anything accidentally.
"It's nothing," I brushed it off
"Bey,"
I could see that there was no point of hiding it from her. I sighed and then unlocked my phone. I went to our messages and then put my phone in her hands.
"He speaks to you like this?" She began to grow angry
She stood from the bed reading the messages over and over.
"Ima have a talk with him," she was very sexy when she was mad
"Nicki please come on it's fine," I tried to calm her down, i walked over to her
"It's not. You deserve the world , the moon , a fucking million stars," she started pacing
I knew Nickis been through a lot and that she was hard but I don't like when she's hard. I like when she's soft with me.
"Hey," i stopped her from walked and I held her hands
She wouldn't look me in my eyes
"Look at me please,"
"I outta kill him,"
"No, no it's okay because I'm coming back here with you tonight," I exhaled
"You're coming back?"
"Yes,"
"You gon miss me too much?" She teased
"I'm going to miss you very much," I found myself in a hug with her. Her hands found a way down my back. My arms rested on her shoulders.
