Behind the smile

The foreigner

It's hard for me to express these feelings I've felt

My mind keeps spinning and then I'm somewhere else

Times I feel myself

And times I don't know who I am

I get lost in my cluttered thoughts

Been like this for so long

Whenever I feel down and blue

I lay alone in the corner

I'm like a lost foreigner

I don't belong to this world

Every day I get trolled

I have many names

I barely have friends

I keep telling myself I will overcome this agony

Had this little hope that made me hold on

Through all the taunts and mocking laughs by friends and family

Do they know how tired I am of acting strong?

Day by day I live like this

I'm numb from the pain

The words they said to pierce my skin

They call me dramatic just because I'm a male

The punch they threw bruise my face

One day it will pay off and come to an end