Behind the smile

Terror

My guffaws sound like tears.

I have a lot of dark fears.

My grin does not extend to my eyes

My world is filled with lies

I can't seem to get anything right.

There is no longer light in my soul.

What's happening with me? I don't know

I've had this feeling before; happiness.

But it's no longer there.

It's becoming more difficult for me.

I'm at a loss for what to do to feel better.

I look in the mirror at myself.

I'm wondering if I'll be able to overcome this terror.

Or should I commit suicide to relieve the stress?

Because I can't go on living with this pain forever.