Tame Her Heart [UNEDITED]

Kabanata 29

Kabanata 29

MY WORLD stop spinning. I literally see the darkness surround me. I can't see anything until a small light welcome my eyes. I blinked enumerably times and was about to say something when I can't find my voice.

It confuse me but why don't I feel bothered? The light coming from no where made me calm. It makes my heart felt at ease and I don't want this feeling to end. I was like in the no where soft place and I like this. I like this feeling.

I don't feel anything but genuine happiness and ease. I don't feel pain nor sadness. It's refreshing and I don't want to be away in this place. A smile escape my lips and let the darkness took me. But instead of it, the light coming from no where was now slowly expanding.

I shut my eyes when it hurts my eyes. Slowly, it disappeared and what shock me was my son is in front of me right now. He's smiling at me and waving his hand but I shook my head because that doesn't seem good.

I tried to walk closer to hug him but I can't move my feet. Like it was frozen there and all I need to do is to look at my son. I tried to shout but there's no voice coming from my mouth.

I was in the verge of crying when my son slowly walk towards me. It made me smile when he softly held my hand and I want to hold him back so bad but I can't. I can't move my hand nor talk to him. But a lone tear escape my eyes by just looking at him.

"I'm okay, Mama." His voice was soothing and it made me cried more. "Wag kana po iyak hah?"

I shook my head while silently crying. Telling him that I can't stop my tears knowing that he's in front of me but I can't even hold him! Talk to him or even kiss his forehead! So why would I stop crying?

"Ayos lang po ako." He smiled at me softly. "Hanapin niyo po ako ni Papa hah? Hihintayin ko po kayo. Mahal na mahal ko po kayo."

I nodded my head absentmindedly to tell him that it's gonna be okay. His smile makes me felt at ease but a bunch of tears escape my eyes he slowly let go of my hand with that sweet smile.

Hindi ko nagustuhan ang kanyang pinakita dahil iba ang pakiramdam ko dito. Kanina sobrang gaan ng pakiramdam ko. Na wala akong nararamdaman kahit anong sakit pero isa iyong malaking pagkakamali.

My heart was aching so bad while watching my son who turn his back at me while waving his hand.

"Bye bye Mama!"

I shook my head and my eyes became blurry because of the tears but I still watch him running his back at me. Mas lalong nanikip ang dibdib ko sa nakita at sinubukan ang makakaya na sundan siya ngunit hindi ko man lang maigalaw ang aking mga paa. 

My breathing raged when I can't see him anymore and the darkness finally envaded me. I close my eyes and let it be but a faint voice from no where made me back my senses.

"Mary! Hey, honey. Wake up. Wake up!"

Humahangos na napabangon ako at nagtaka nang makitang wala ako sa aking kwarto. The smell of antiseptic was enough proof for me that I'm in the hospital.

"Hey, hon. Are you fine? You've been crying."

I glanced at Khenzon when he cupped my both cheek and dried my tears. I stared at him intently and I can see his swollen eyes. 

"Hey, hon. Please, talk to me. Nag-aalala na ako. Tell why are you crying?"

What he said made my senses back and realization hit me why I'm here in the hospital. Biglang nanginig ang labi ko nang maalala ang nangyari. Ang lahat-lahat bago ako nawalan ng malay at klarong-klaro sa memorya ko kung paano kinuha si Mazon.