Tame Her Heart [UNEDITED]

Kabanata 26

Kabanata 26

I THOUGHT I'm already immune in pain. I thought I already fought for it and readied my self from that. But hell, I'm wrong. I'm definitely wrong and now, I was hurt again in a simple way but it was enough to shattered my heart into million pieces.

I was just there, staring at his back while he's running after.. Brielle. I didn't imagine this situation but expected the unexpected right? And I don't know that it hurts so much. I don't know that I'll feel this way.

Para akong lantang gulay na tumalikod, naglakad pabalik para tinalikuran siya. Hindi na inisip ang bag na naiwan dahil baka mas lalo ko lang masaktan ang sarili ko kapag mas lumapit pa ako.

I can feel the unshed tears in my eyes but I tried my hardest to not cry. It makes me weak again so as much as possible, I don't want to be weak this time. I need to endure it for the meantime because.. reality hurts right? Everything in reality hurts at the same time it makes you happy.

The empty hallway welcome me when I was now in the campus. I was still staring blankly and I can't process anything but the scene earlier.

He chase her. I saw how he chase her. But why? That's the biggest question for me. Bakit kailangan niyang habulin si Brielle? Bakit?

I feel like it was the biggest mistake for me to get back. If I didn't get back, would I feel pain right now? If I didn't get back, maybe I'm still laughing with my friends right now?

I don't know.

I throw the empty milk tea when I get pass in the trash bin but still, I was so lost. Lost in everything after seeing it. Kahit nang makapasok ako sa classroom ay tumango lang ako sa Prof at dumeretso sa upuan ko.

I can feel the stares of my friends and I know they want to talk to me but they can't because the Prof was talking in front. Kinailangan ko pang huminga ng malalim at iwaglit sa isipan ang nasaksihan kanina pero hindi iyon sapat para mawala ang sakit dito sa puso ko.

I tried to fucos in our lesson but I ended thinking about them again. Kung ano na kaya ang nangyari sa kanila? Kung nasaan na kaya sila? Kung ano kaya ang pinag-uusapan nila?

I was too preoccupied to the point that the Prof scolded me because I was so lost in her lesson. It was my first time to be scolded by the Prof but I understand. I can't blame her too.

"My expectations to you is high, Ms. Pacay. Palalampasin ko muna ito ngayon pero sa susunod na gaganito ka pa sa klase ko, alam mo naman siguro kung anong mangyayari diba?"

I slowly nodded at the Prof. "Yes Ma'am."

"Good. Please be seated."

Naupo akong muli ngunit sa pagkakataong ito, pinilit ko na ang sarili na makinig sa lesson niya at hindi na inisip ang nasasaktang puso. Everytime I think about them, I instantly wipe it away so I could focus in my studies.

I don't want them to hinder my studies so I'll try to make everything right. To settle everything even though I don't know how.

Natapos ang buong klase sa hapong 'yon at nagpapasalamat akong kahit konti ay may natutunan pa ako. When the class dismissed, the girls were quite but they were silently watching me. Hanggang sa makarating kami sa opisina ay nanatili parin kaming tahimik ngunit hindi na yata nakayanan ni Hanna ang katahimikan dahil nagsalita na siya.

"Seriously, what's the problem? Simula no'ng bumalik ka, para ka ng may malalim na iniisip."

I look at her tiredly before I sat in the couch. I bended my knees and hug it, na para bang dito ako kumukuha ng lakas dahil pakiramdam ko sobrang hina ko ngayon.