Just Another Girl

an Addiction

I think I was an addict
Something people don’t understand
Until they’ve been there too
The highs were unimaginable
I planned every moment, every second
So the next one would be sooner

I only realize now
The thing that was my undoing
Was my ultimate high
Nothing ever compared again
It was pale, bleak, lonely
And I broke under the strain

Today I struggle
Wanting to go back to that lifestyle
It wasn’t drugs to destroy me
It wasn’t drink to drown in
But it was a part of me
That I don't know how to live without