(Taehyung's pov)
I winced slightly as I coughed again. I have been feeling unwell since today morning.
I somehow had managed to get up from my bed, after a lot of coaxing from Jin hyung. I then had to drag myself to the bathroom to get ready. Breakfast seemed like a bad idea to me cause I was already nauseous, so I just skipped it, promising that I would eat some time later.
The thing is, today we have a concert. So, we are in the hotel right now, and soon we will be heading out to the venue, just to practice in the stadium and get things in order, to prevent any chaos or such things. These last moment preparations are very important, so we cannot be late.
I kinda feel sick today, no kidding. But then again, maybe I am just tired. I mean we all are, we have really busy schedules so often, we all are exhausted. After the concert I will make sure to take proper rest. Till then, I will be fine.
(Timeskip)
We are in the stadium, in the waiting rooms, we just had our run throughs. Honestly, I feel a bit faint right now. I mean, I guess it's just from the nerves, I get light headed before concerts because of my nervousness. So, probably it's that.
I am a little out of breath after the rehearsal, so I run backstage and grab a chair to sit down. I drown myself in a water bottle, hoping to feel a bit better. I really feel that I'll faint any moment if I keep going, but I need to do this. I cannot let ARMY down. I don't want to upset my members either so I won't say anything, it's better to keep shut anyways.
As I am lost in my thoughts, I hear my name being called. I shake myself out of my thoughts as I get up.
I see my members coming to me, so I start walking towards them, however, I feel a bit dizzy. I sway a bit on my feet, trying to steady myself.
"Taehyung, what's wrong? "
"Tae, are you okay?"
"Hyung why did you run back? Is everything all right?"
"Do you feel sick?"
"Rest for a while kid."
As I feel better, I stand up straighter. I know the members are concerned, but at this moment, I feel annoyed.
"Guys stop, I am okay. Let's just go back and continue, we need the concert to be perfect. Please, I am fine."
I say, firmly.
"But Tae, you look p-"
Jin hyung tried to say something but I just turned around, walking towards the stage to avoid there concerned glances and worries.
Again, I feel bad for behaving rudely so I turn around.
"Guys I am fine, okay? Cool down and just come, let's get ready"
I say in a more calmed manner, trying to lighten the mood.
Soon, I hear footsteps behind me, I know instantly that they all are behind me, following me. I feel a hand on my shoulder, as I see Jimin ruffling my hair. I smile at him and we all walk towards the stage.
For the last time, as we practice, I give my best. I use all my effort, so that my members believe me that I am actually fine.
However, after the final run through, I realise that I am not okay, not even close to being okay. But I'll pull through this, cause concerts mean a lot to me. I won't be a burden and bring everyone down and disappoint army. Never.
As we all go to the waiting rooms to get ready and get our makeover, final touch ups and all, I make sure to act normal and excited. I don't want my members to think I am sick, I want them to forget it. So, I even share jokes, and my boxy grins, and soon, they all look convinced. I applaud myself in my mind, for being such a good actor.
I am finally performing today, I feel worse but that's okay cause I'll make others happy. It's just today, after that I can take time for myself.
Today is going to be a long day, I tell myself as the final countdown starts.
(Hoseok's pov)
Taehyung looked pale today. Just after we finished our rehearsal, he went running back. We all were concerned. We shared our worries with each other as we started looking for Tae. He was probably backstage. As we went there, calling out his name, we saw Tae get up from his chair, coming towards us.
However, he suddenly stopped as he swayed on his feet. He clearly was not well.
We rushed to him. All of us started asking him questions out of concern.
"Guys stop, I am okay. Let's just go back and continue, we need the concert to be perfect. Please, I am fine."
He took his time to answer, slight annoyance in his voice.
But we were obviously not convinced. Jin hyung proceeded to ask him something more, but then he turned around and started walking, ignoring Jin hyung completely. Jinnie hyung looked hurt, but Joonie hyung assured him that's it is okay, holding his hands.
We all got confused, cause Tae never acted like that before. He's, off.
But then, after walking for a while he turned back to us saying,
Guys I am fine, okay? Cool down and just come, let's get ready"
He sounded much more calm.
After a few seconds, not knowing what else to do, we exchanged looks as we started following him.
Jimin slipped his hand on Taehyung's shoulder as he smiled.
We started rehearsing for the very last time, we all kept our eyes on Tae. Atleast I did, and I am sure the others did so as well.
Taehyung absolutely killed it. He used so much energy and his steps were right on point, making it look absolutely perfect.
Maybe he was saying the truth, maybe he was really not sick?
Maybe he was swaying back there because he was just tired, we all were.
Soon enough, we all were in the waiting room getting our final touch ups.
Taehyung looked really happy, he was busy sharing jokes and jumping around.
I looked at the members and they all look relieved seeing Tae so energetic.
Taehyung flashed his boxy smile to us, laughing hysterically at the makeup noona's joke.
So, Tae was really not lying. He was being truthful. He was really not sick. He looked perfect. He was absolutely fine. So, I let it slip out of my mind as I started concentrating more on the concert, and so did the others. It was going to be a long night.
(To be continued)
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Author's note : I am extremely sorry for being so, so late. It's just, I had a very difficult time. I will be better, I promise and I'll update more often.
I love you all, thank you so much!
