What I Leave Behind

Nostalgia

You walk in a house full of black and white pictures in old golden frames
With creeking floorboards and the furniture coated with a layer of dust
The house may look the same, but the people in there were long gone
So what where you searching for in this house full with rust?

The nostalgia overwhelms you, a film of memories playing in your mind
You can still see her sitting in that chair, playing games with your sister
You can see her in the kitchen, her eyes twinkling with joy
You remember her in your room, still wishing you had kissed her

But as you walk up to your room, avoiding the creaking steps
The film starts playing memories that you don't want to see anymore
You see flashes of her running down, screaming and shouting and getting out
You could feel her slipping through your fingers as she walked out of the door

Still, isn't that what you came to find in this old, broken house?
Between these walls, she is still alive, still laying in your arms every night
In here you feel like you still have a chance to kiss her before she runs away
Because her clothes still hang in your closet, her shoes are still in sight

Did you find what you came to seek, or did you just find disappointment?
You know it's this feeling she's still here, your memories, you cannot trust
Because like the pictures of her smiling, still hanging on your walls
The reality of you and her is getting old, coated with layers of dust