Thorns After Everything (Completed)

Chapter 35

Nagkamali ako.

I shouldn't have walked away.

I shouldn't have left him.

I should've told him I was there when she was about to kiss her.

I should've stopped him as soon as I stepped my foot in the room.

I should've made a different decision that night.

As I packed my clothes, Paolla packed hers too sa hotel kung saan siya nag-stay. Not that far from Ate's house.

Nakaramdam ako ng kalabit sa balikat ko matapos kong ni-zip ang baggage ko. Ate was there behind me. Yes, always behind my back.

"Ate..."

"Let's talk." She said.

Nakita ko ang niece ko na tulog sa dibdib ni Ate. Karga niya it habang mahimbing na natutulog. I kissed her cheeks and let Ate put her on her little crib.

Nagtungo ako sa living room and Ate made a chamomile tea for me.

Naalala ko si Zadist nang dahil sa tea na ito.

Umupo si Ate sa tabi ko and tried looking at my face.

"Mag-ingat ka sa pag-uwi mo, Maris." Sabi niya.

I nodded.

"Are you okay now?"

"No." Kaagad kong sagot. "Ate, I'm scared."

Napaginhawa siya ng mahina.

Sighing is just... I don't it feels like it's a burden sometimes.

"And I'm sorry." Kaagad kong sabi. "Nadamay pa kita sa kagaguhan ko."

Her forehead creased. "You needed time and space, I was just giving it to you. Hindi panggagago ang nagawa mo, Maris. You're just shocked and hurt."

Ayokong umiyak.

"But you do fail one thing."

Napatingin ako sa kanya.

"I've told you before to look for a reason why you love him... no matter what happens."

I cried.

"And all I did was left him. Without a trace, a word, explanations, everything. None." I sobbed as I said those words. I hurt Zadist.

"Now go back there and tell him the truth." Sabi niya. "And call me, okay?"

I nodded.

I hugged Ate after that.

I felt better but also heavy after we talked. Hindi pa din ako makaka-imagine kong gaano ko nasaktan si Z. Iniwan ko siya sa pinakamabilis na paraan.

Pero bakit ganun?

Bakit gusto ko na sana maiintindihan niya din ang reason ko?

Kasi I didn't just leave.

Nasaktan ako.

So I chose to leave.

Iba-iba pala talaga ang sensitivity ng bawat tao, kaya minsan kaya mo. Minsan hindi. Minsan sa sobrang sensitive, you get emtional unnecesarrily.

Nakarating kami ni Paolla sa NAIA Aiport kinabukasan.

Bawat yapak kinakabahan ako.

Para bang life and death situation ang bawat lakad ko.

Paolla took me to the hospital where Zadist was being admitted.

Nakarating kami sa Hospital and searched for him but he wasnt there anymore. Kaagad kong tinawagan si Maro kung nasaan siya at nagbabasakaling magkasama silang dalawa ni Z.