Garrett's Other Side

14.)

"What did you mean" I asked referring to his "please don't Princess" line.

"Don't trust me. Not right now" he said sounding impatient.

"But I do. I— I trust you. You wouldn't hurt me" I said trying to calm any worry he had.

"How can you be sure? How do you know" he asked looking directly at me.

I didn't know what to say. He was right. I have no idea what he could do to me.

"Mind over matter. If I don't mind, it doesn't matter" I said quoting my dad.

"It doesn't work like that Princess. You don't know what you mind, so it will matter" he said.

He sounded so angry. So, so... belittling. Maybe he thought I was just prying to have sex or force him into something he wasn't ready to do.

"Garrett? Please look at me" I said getting his attention from the television.

"I'm not with you just for sex, if that's what you're worried about. I— I don't really have any experience to be honest, so that's not what I'm after" I said before he interjected.

"That makes me feel worse Rachelle!! I can't f*ck you the way I want to! Especially since you don't have experience" he said getting up and walking towards my room.

I followed him into the room finding him sitting on the edge of my bed.

"I don't mean I'm a virgin" I said quietly.

"I just... my ex didn't— didn't do anything special. It was very quick and... unenjoyable to say the least" I rambled trying to make him feel more comfortable.

"If you're really worried I won't press anymore, but eventually you'll have to show me who you are.... And I promise I'll still want you" I said crossing my leg over the other.

"As long as you want me, I'll want you" I said turning to walk out.

"I want you" he said from behind me.

My heart raced and my mind went blank. I did this to myself. I made him feel like he needed to do this. Dang it!

I turned around as he stood up. "Come here" he said.

I walked over and stood in front of him as my breath labored. "I've wanted you for so long. You're— you're so beautiful, and so mesmerizing, and you're funny, and sweet, and loyal, everything. Everything I'd want... you have" he said.

I tried to listen to him, but I was extremely distracted by his hands. His hands trailed down my sides and rubbed my hips.

"That's why I'm so scared" he said kissing my neck. "I'm scared you'll leave if you see the monster I really am" he said still trailing kisses down my neck.

His hands reached around to my back, pushing me into him. I wrapped my arms around his neck pulling him closer.

"I won't" I said completely out of breath.

He pulled back and looked at me.

"Promise?"

He looked so sweet. He sounded like a lost puppy, while his eyes told me something else.

"I promise" I said back.

He smiled and kissed me. This kiss was different. It was hungry, uncontrolled... needy.
He pulled back again and said "before anything happens... I need you to remember the word 'red' ok?"

I stared at him blankly wondering what he meant. Why did I need to remember "red"?

"Ok" he repeated seriously.

"Ok" I said back.

"Why... why 'red'" I asked.

"If you aren't enjoying what I'm doing, or simply are finished, say 'red' and I'll stop" he explained.

"O—ok" I stuttered in worry.

"Ok... do you trust me" he asked looking at me with lust-filled eyes.

"Yes" I said nervously.

He looked at me like I was his prey. He was determined... on a mission.

"I'll be gentle" he said kissing my lips.