Gibbs sickfic

chapter 19

Tony: *whispers* in the ER for attempting suicide. Ducky: WHAT!
Abbie: what duck. Tony: all of you lets talk out of the room so we don't wake Gibbs. The team nods* walks out into the hallway. Tony: yes it is McGee is with her but i think everyone should be with her besides Jackson so he can watch Gibbs. Jackson: ok what do i tell gibbs when he wakes up.
The team nods.  Tony: say we went home cause a few too many days on the cot/floor. Jackson: shouldn't someone tell gibbs what happened. Tony: yeah. Jackson: whos going to tell him. Abbie nit me or ill do something stupid.  Palmer. Not me.
Ducky : ill do it. I guess. Tony: ok he knows you the best anyway. Ducky: walks in to gibbs room and shakes him awake. Wake up JETHRO. Gibbs: groans what i'm tired don't feel well and weak.
Ducky: gibbs at this moment im so mad at you that i dont care. Ducky: Ziva is in the hospital because of you. Gibbs: why *still kind of asleep*. Ducky: because she tried to kill herself* walks away. Gibbs: WHAT *gets up and stubbles to the door*. Ducky: shoves him back in bed. Stay.Gibbs: why she's a member of my team i need to see her *goes to get up again not caring how bad he feels*. Mcgee:BECAUSE YOUR THE REASON SHES EVEN IN THE HOSPITAL BED. YOU FUCKING BASTARD. Gibbs: i'm very confused. McGee: never mind im not dealing with you. If you don't know you deserve to not know. Gibbs: i don't know what happen in the passed two months. McGee: think about at work. Ziva: wakes up and looks around before crying. Gibbs: all i know from the passed two months is me getting home from work and dealing with stomach pains tell a crime scene i throw up blood. Mcgee: *walks away*. Ziva: quickly writes a suicide note before hanging herself. Dear Gibbs,

It’s with a heavy heart that I write you this note, knowing the amount of pain it is going to cause you.
Gibbs , I want you to know that I love you dearly and will always love you. If I am given the opportunity to live again I will still choose you as my work and our family will still be my place of happiness.
But unfortunately, I know that there is not going to be any such opportunity.
Gibbs, I didn’t want to do this, but I was compelled by circumstances beyond my control to take the plunge.

I tried my best to pull through, but my best was not good enough. I battled alone for about thirteen months now until my strength failed me. you could not decipher what I was going through and maybe I should not blame you for that.

My one and only friend Abbie came very close to understanding what I was passing through but it was too much for her mind to comprehend.

NCIS, I know that you loved me and did everything you could to prove that to me but I was not feeling loved.

You provided for me more than I even wanted, took me to places that most of my mates have not even heard of, yet despite all these my heart was longing for love.

I needed someone who would love me for who I was. I needed someone who could reach to the depth of my soul and feel the vacuum there.
And I was alone all the while, despite the fact that we laughed together and had gist as a family.

Gibbs, i loved you like a father but you treated me like i was nothing. You always compared me to kate. Nothing i even did could compare to what she did. To you i was never a good enough agent or person. I tried so hard to please you but nothing worked
Tony:
i loved you tony. You showed me that i could always count on you to support me and help me in my time of need
Abbie
You showed me confidence and tried to teach me not to care what people thought. And you will always be my friend.
Ducky
I could rely on you for a hug or even just a random story that made me feel better. And im very grateful for you
Palmer
I don't know you very well but what i do know is that you accepted me from the very beginning. Thank you
Vance
Thank you for giving me the opportunity to work with them. I will always be grateful for you
Mcgee
Im sorry McGee i planned to stay with you forever but i cant take the pain of not being a NCIS agent but i also cant deal with gibbs hating me. I love you. Please dont grieve to long you deserve to be happy.Zivas suicide note *Dear Gibbs,
It’s with a heavy heart that I write you this note, knowing the amount of pain it is going to cause you.
Gibbs , I want you to know that I love you dearly and will always love you. If I am given the opportunity to live again I will still choose you as my work and our family will still be my place of happiness.
But unfortunately, I know that there is not going to be any such opportunity.
Gibbs, I didn’t want to do this, but I was compelled by circumstances beyond my control to take the plunge.

I tried my best to pull through, but my best was not good enough. I battled alone for about thirteen months now until my strength failed me. you could not decipher what I was going through and maybe I should not blame you for that.

My one and only friend Abbie came very close to understanding what I was passing through but it was too much for her mind to comprehend.

NCIS, I know that you loved me and did everything you could to prove that to me but I was not feeling loved.

You provided for me more than I even wanted, took me to places that most of my mates have not even heard of, yet despite all these my heart was longing for love.

I needed someone who would love me for who I was. I needed someone who could reach to the depth of my soul and feel the vacuum there.
And I was alone all the while, despite the fact that we laughed together and had gist as a family.

Gibbs, i loved you like a father but you treated me like i was nothing. You always compared me to kate. Nothing i even did could compare to what she did. To you i was never a good enough agent or person. I tried so hard to please you but nothing worked
Tony:
i loved you tony. You showed me that i could always count on you to support me and help me in my time of need
Abbie
You showed me confidence and tried to teach me not to care what people thought. And you will always be my friend.
Ducky
I could rely on you for a hug or even just a random story that made me feel better. And im very grateful for you
Palmer
I don't know you very well but what i do know is that you accepted me from the very beginning. Thank you
Vance
Thank you for giving me the opportunity to work with them. I will always be grateful for you
Mcgee
Im sorry McGee i planned to stay with you forever but i cant take the pain of not being a NCIS agent but i also cant deal with gibbs hating me. I love you. Please dont grieve to long you deserve to be happy. Gibbs: what i'm i missing. Mcgee: abby can you go check on ziva. Tony: i need some air. Gibbs: can someone please tell me what i'm missing. Ducky: i will. Abbs go check on ziva please.  You treated her like shit gibbs. Ducky: dont forget to check the bathroom . And look around everywhere abbs. Tony: we all remember. Gibbs: why can't i remember the littlest things. Tony: shows him a video of his being rude to ziva. Mcgee: sees abby very pale. Abs whats wrong.