White Wall

18: Secret

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Secret
JUV'S POV

I just became busy in the month of September, science fair approached, and my braincells was ready for the science project.

And on, for the first time, I got in the 2nd place. Buti na lang new school 'to at ilan lang ang nakakaalam na lagi akong 1st sa ganitong bagay.

Did I fail? Nakakalungkot actually, I don't know, baka nasanay lang ako na laging panalo. I fail myself. 'Yon 'yon. I feed up my own expectation. Siguro ngayon, I should starve my expectation to death, then fed up with the result; win or learn.

That's it!

October, many hell weeks happened. Hindi mawawala ang pagpansin ko kay Hallyx.

There are times that she's late in passing, or sometimes, she's asking for the deadline to be extended. I didn't know that deadline is her weakness.

"Hallyx, ano 'yong pula sa bag mo? Balak mo ba'ng mag-apply na maging Santa?" tanong ng isa nilang ka-grupo.

Actually, we are in the floor. Naka-bilog ang bawat grupo. Malapit lang naman ang pwesto nila kaya nakikinig na ako sa usapan nila.

" 'Wag mo ngang pansinin 'yan. Nang hahalwat pa ng gamit, wala kang regalo sa akin sa pasko," asik niya habang nagsusulat sa manila paper.

"Yaman ah," sabat ng isa pa.

"Wish ko lang," she said, humility on it? I think.

And then, it happened, kumanta sila ng 'Wish ko lang'.

Nailing na lang ako.

Nagkulang na sa time kaya, napagdesisyonan ng ibang grupo na ituloy na lang sa bahay at ang grupo naman namin ay magpapaiwan sa hapon para tapusin.

"Ingresio!"

Papunta na sana ako sa cafeteria—dahil lunch na namin at may tigre na sa tiyan ko— nang tinawag ako ni Kobi, the ex Lunch Prince ni Hallyx.

Inakbayan niya ako, medyo napayuko ako't inayos ang  sariling salamin. Yes, I'm wearing it now! My specatacles is very close to my heart, If I die single then my spectacles must be my soulmate.

Contact lense is such a mistress.

"Ingresio, talo ka na. May Marc nang pumoporma kay Hallyx," said he.

"Ah? I thought Fist, also Hilton," I said sarcastically with witt, after a long paused I continued, "Hilton's into Anisa but he's playing with them both. There's Jem, also Felicity, she's into chic, I think? Also Marvin, Gael, and that maniac, Harvey."

"Putangina mo."

I didn't react on his face that pissed on what I spat. Yeah, hindi lang si Marc ang pumoporma kay Hally, they are many.

I once saw Felicity, secretly talking with Hallyx, yah. Ewan, lahat sila ay pinagseselosan ko. Si Hilton, nakadikit na siya kay Anisa, that means... pati rin kay Hallyx.

Anisa and Hallyx are now in good terms. Balewala lang pala 'yong ginawa ni Anisa na panloloko? I think they really talked about it.

"Talo ka pa rin."

"At least I confessed," I said, "and I hope that my affection for her will fade. And that, for now, the word impossible is eating me. So, I'm still pursuing her."

While smirking he punched me on the shoulder.

"Umamin ka na? Talaga? Tangina, ikaw ang i-li-libre ko ng lunch."