this // narry au

55. soulless

A/N: I WAS 100% JOKING ABOUT SUCKING MY TEACHERS DICK I FORGOT TO SAY I WAS JOKING AND I SOUNDED SO SERIOUS

A little blurb of Niall's POV then the rest is Harry's POV because nIALL'S POV IS HARD HE'S A MYSTERIOUS CHARACTER

also guess what guess what guess what thERE IS DADDY! KINK SMUT COMIMG UP I JUST WROTE IT AND IT'S TERRIBLY KINKY I BLUSH EVERY TIME I THINK ABOUT THE CHAPTER

And you guys are so nice omg like the past couple of weeks I've gotten a lot of nice messages from you guys and you're sO NICE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU

AND GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT GUESS WHAT I GOT NOMINATED FOR A BROMANCE AWARD im trying to figure out which one of you little devils put me in the awards because I didnt 😑

bUT IM NOMINATED FOR THE HOLIDAY 2014 BROMANCE AWARDS YOU HAVE TO GO ON @BromanceAwards 's account because like I have noooo idea how awards even work BUT NOW IM IN THE COMPETITION AND I'M AGAINST A LOT OF BETTER BOOKS SO WE'LL SEE HOW THAT GOES

55 - Soulless (named this chapter after soulless!sam who was hot af)

Niall's Point of View.

I drive, and I drive and drive and drive until I'm almost out of gas. That's the only way I can get Harry off my mind, driving.

Just watching everything pass by.

And alcohol was a good time passer too, I'd just drink until I couldn't even feel the burn in the back of my throat. Make my throat numb, just like the rest of my body.

Numb. That's how I feel. I was black and white and Harry was a rainbow, adding colour and meaning to my life. Without him, I'm just numb.

Unable to feel.

Drinking and driving. Two great things I loved to do, not so great when you do them together.

I'd probably end up in some car wreak and Harry would have to see pictures of my dead, lifeless body broadcasted all over television so as much as I want to die, I won't.

I'll stay alive for Harry.

Harry, the name of the only person I can truly say I was in complete and utter love with.

I guess that's why I snapped; the utter thought of Harry ever not being my my side and living a perfect life without me killed me inside.

Oh please, of course that's not the reason. He doesn't know the real reason.

He was my princess, my meaning, my sunshine. How does he expect me to find my way when he's the light guiding me? When your light decides to quit on you how do you continue?

Maybe I'd ask Harry. If I ever see him again.

Fucking Zayn drove him away before I could even explain myself. I know I get angry and pissed and I have a lot of issues but I have my reasons.

I need him back.

I feel the tears well up in my eyes and I shake my head, wiping them away furiously because everybody thought I was tough.

Rock hard, soulless, care-free, asshole Niall Horan. The criminal that didn't give two shits about anybody or anything.

And yet this random boy I met in a store changed my whole life.

Harry changed my whole entire life.

I wanted to call him but I was scared. Scared that he'd just reject me.

I'm scared.

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Harry's Point of View.