More Than Just A Kick

Chapter 23

Her Eyes

I am in a middle of sailing in the sea of my thoughts that leads to wonder how Marsan treats me so special but yesterday was really different, I think I stepped his boundary that he built around everyone including me. I will forgive him for saying that I'm not his girlfriend and I'll say sorry to him. Honestly, I was overthinking that something was going on between us but I won't tell him that. It'll just scare me because it's really my fault, I gave in. I forgot that Marsan is a secretive and mysterious person.

Upon thinking too much, I notice Roxan who enters the room through the door in front while I was sitting in the first row beside the window.

"Hi!" Roxan greets me and sits beside my left.

"Hello," I respond in a low voice. We rarely greet each other and we never have a proper small talk.

"Why are your eyes swollen?" Roxan asks while pointing at my eyes.

"Can I..." May pag-aalinlangan kong tanong and I pause for a few seconds. Is she the right person to tell about my dramas in life? Based on her personality, she's safe to tell about my secrets to her but I can't risk it, no one should know.

"What is it?" She asks while looking at me with full of curiosity and those ocean blue eyes always remind me of Marthim, Marthim was my best friend, kaya naman parang ang dali na lang makipagkaibigan kay Roxan.

Oh no! Marthim will get mad if he knew I fall in love with Marsan.
"Nothing. Never mind." Heck, no one should know about it. Pati hindi ko gamay ang magsabi sa babae, this would be the first time. It scares me a bit, but as I look at her, she seems relaxing and okay with me. 

"Okay." Then she smiles.

A meme pops out inside my mind. I saw it once I was scrolling the internet.

When an American or a foreigner says, "Never mind," one would normally respond "Okay."

But if a Filipino says, "Never mind," a filipino would typically respond, "Ano nga?"

I laugh a bit in my head about it.

"I THINK you should know about something." Sambit ni Roxan pagkatapos ng aming lecture sa History. "Let's head to the café."

"Okay." I respond.

I sip my chocolate-milk shake with strawberry on  top of it, I ordered it earlier when we came here. I am facing Roxan who's sipping her drink which is the very popular milk tea. We are sitting near the door beside the glass window.

"Aren't you curious about my eyes?" Her question catches my attention. I look at her blue eyes, there something in it that I wanna dive in.

"What about your eyes?"

"My eyes..." She pause for a few seconds, nangingilid na sa kulay asul niyang mga mata ang mga luhang handa nang lumabas. "They're from Marthim." Sunod-sunod na ngang lumabas ang luha sa kanyang mga mata. It feels like it came from him, I could feel the emotion too, it battles in my head. A tear also fell through my face down to my cheeks.

"Why?" I asks while crying, I couldn't even dare to drink my chocolate-milk drink.

"Please don't be mad at me for not telling it to you before, but I swear I just knew all about it yesterday. My mom cleaned our house yesterday, then I found a paper. It was the contract of my operation. It clearly stated that Marthim was the donor. My eyes, is not mine but its Marthim's."

Napatulala na lamang ako sa mga nalaman ko, how I didn't figure it out? So it means, Marthim is really dead. Dati ay umaasa pa ako buhay siya sapagkat hindi naman namin siya nakitang nilibing na katulad ng nakasulat sa mga libro, bigla na ulit silang lilitaw at babalik. A tear fell once again from my left eye agad ko iyong pinunasan ng aking kamay.