Up and Down

brownies

IVY'S POV

I turn to look at Ryder, pulling the blankets closer to my body and raise my eyebrow at him,

"Ivy I'm sorry for wasting your time but I don't know what to do, Kate being in a coma if really taking effect on me and I cant drink away my sorrows because something bad will happen, I'll probably be either really violent or.... well i dont want to cheat on Kate because I love her to much"

"Hey, I understand, you just need to get your mind off things, so thats what we'll do, your gonna join Chase and I and watch a bunch of awesome TV shows and eat a bunch of junk food" He nodds and gives me a sad smile and walks back in, Charlie comes and replaces him, he looks nervous,

"Its something big isnt?" I murmer, he nods

"Well go on"

"Ivy, I umm, found some documents, that said some stuff"

"What did they say"

"Uh you and I, are um brother and sister" my mouth falls open

Charlie, my brother, I'm torn between excitement  about having a family and confusion, how could Charlie be my brother and how on earth could  this happen

"How?" is all is manage to get out

"Your mum and my dad, you and I are twins, but I looked to much like my dad and your dad would've been pissed off and our parents all knew about his anger issues and they were scared so they sent me to live with mum and dad" I nod struggling to take this all in

"It'll be ok, we'll get through this, nothing has to change right?"

"Yeah sure"

"Well lets go back in" he turns and walks in and I follow. 

I grab a pinch of flour and throw it on to Ryders head

"Ivy! What did you do that for?" 

"You doubted my baking skills, never do that, otherwise your piece of brownie will be poisoned"

"Ok ok, I get it, no insulting the cook" I pour the batter into the tray and carefully slide it into the oven and set the timer,

"So what now?"

"Well...." Ryder dives for the flour, and before i have time to react a fist full of flour is dunked over my head, oh so this is whats happening, I grab the tomato sauce and squirt him with it

"Ew... food fight!" he breaks and egg over my head and I pour pickle juice on him, the fight goes on until the timer rings, we look at each other and laugh at all the food thats covering our bodies. 
I wash my hands and pull out the brownies, 

"That smells so good"

"I told you that you shouldnt doubt my cooking"

"Ok, I wont do it again"

"Well I'll show you the bathroom, so you can have a shower and I'll ask Chase to bring some clothes over for you" He nods, and once he's gone and in the bathroom, i pull out my phone

-Hey Chase?

-Yeah beautiful 😏

-my attempt to distract ryder worked

-thats great, you really are amazing

-haha, well we kind of got into a food fight, he's in the shower could you come over and bring some clothes for him, because I don't really want to see him in only a towel

-Yeah, I know I'm the only one you wanna see like that

-whatever🙄

-Ok I'll be over in 5

-Great see you then

- love yah bye

I look at the message and smile, even though it probably dosnt really mean anything, I grab the sticky notepad and quickly write a note, for chase when he gets here saying that i'll be in the shower and to just do what he wants, then i go into grandma's old room and use the shower in her ensuite,  I breathe in. This room still smells her, i let out a deep sigh and start shedding clothes; I turn on the hot water and enter the shower.

 The hot water burns my skin, but I ignore the pain, as I imagine it washing off all the bad things that have ever happened, my mother dying, dad escaping, grandma dying, being shot, kate being in a coma, then I let go. All the walls break down and I just cry, in pain and in grief, I cry so hard that it hurts, I sob and drop to my knee's, and cry out because I feel as if someone has got hold of my heart and is twisting it and ripping it from my chest, I continue cry, my sobs grow louder. The shower door opens and I clutch my knees close to my chest, the hot water disapears and a towel falls onto my back, I pull it around my body, I'm lifted up and pulled into an embrace, it feels like the tears are never stop falling. Fingers are running through my hair and a voice is telling me that everything going to be ok, I dont believe that, its never been ok.

Chases POV

I hold her against my chest, suddenly she stiffens and pulls away from me, and with out looking at me she mutters a thanks under her breath and walks out.

"Chase you eat one first" Ryder say pointing to the plate of brownies

"Ok, but why?" I grab a brownie and shove it into my mouth

"Because, I don't trust Ivy's cooking, she's probably trying to poison me" 

"WellI dont think she is this bloody delicious"  Ivy hasnt come out of her room since what happened in the shower and i'm starting to get worried

"Dude chill" 

"Huh?'

"Ivy, shes gonna be fine, a lot  stuff has happened, she's gonna need some time alone to process what happened and cry"

"I know, but I can't help but worry its all gonna be to much for her to handle"

"Hey, Ivy's a strong girl she'll make it"