Struggles of a Fangirl

Struggle #46

On our last day in Florida, Walter let us go to the beach just to chill for a little hile before we have to go back to the hotel to shower and head over tothe venue for tonights show. Then right afterwards we have to hurry to leave and catch our flight to Alabama.

 I sit criss-cross on my towel with my hair pulled up into a high bun. I kept the extensions in from the video shoot because they're easier to handle than my own hair. It feels good to be relaxing for a little while. This week has been crazy busy with the video shoot, concerts, interviews and meet and greets. Plus I've been having to catch up on my summer reading since school starts in no more than three weeks. It doesn't even feel like time has passed that quickly. It's like just yesterday I stepped off the plan in Cali, gearing up to meet MB. Now I'm going home next Saturday. I think about everything that has happened since coming arriving here.

 The drama with London, with amounts of times I've cried. Falling for Prod. Meeting OMG, Lil Twist and more. The food fight at the resturant. Designing clothes for MB's tour and BET awards performance. Being in a music video. Kissing Prodigy. Kissing Princeton.

 I glance over at Prodigy who is doing backflips in the sand with Roc, challenging eachother to see who can do the most flips without getting dizzy first. Prodigy laughs as Roc stumbles backwards, almost stepping on Yannie and Joya's sand castle. I love seeing Prod smile so brightly like that. He looks like a regualr teenage boy just having fun when usually he looks like he's trying to hard to keep his poker face on.

 Prodigy is the most down to earth person I've ever met. I used to think it was Prince but my opinion has changed over the two months of being here, for obvious reasons. Prodigy knows what he wants and stops at nothing to get there. He doesn't play it around when it comes to making the fans happy. He'll go through leaps and bounds to put a smile on someones face. He doesn't care about all the glitz and glamour, he cares more about making people happy. He stays true to his self no matter what. That's why we relate so much. I feel like he'd be the one to be there for me when times get rough. Because I've been through some bumps in the road and so far he's always the first one to lend a helping hand a shoulder to cry on.

 Then there's Princeton. He's playing in the water with Myles, pushing him into the small wave that rolls in. Myles drags him down into the water and they both go under before popping back up. His soggy afro flopping in his face. A small smile creases my face as he uses hand to push back his soggy curls that only flip back into his face.

 Anyone can argue and say that Princeton is superficial and fake but think of it from his point a view. If you saw someone that was cute and was actually "interested" in you too, wouldn't you go after them too? We've all done it. Love someone that isn't good for us. We only look at the positive things about them and ignore the negatives even though both sides should be balanced out. Princeton doesn't mean to be blind, he's as genuine as friends can come. What I like about Princeton is that he's more of a free spirit than Prod. He marches to the beat of his own drum and doesn't let trends pull him in. He's quirky and odd, which is a trait that I've had since birth. He's old romantic and wears his heart on his sleeve, just like me. Prince is searching for the right girl and who knows, that girl could be me.

 Decisions...decisions.

 Three songs go by before I'm joined by Yannie. She spreads out her towel and sits down next to me, her hair dripping wet from the water. "Wassup with you today?" She asks me, I take one of my headphones out and turn to look at her as she dries off. "You've been so quiet, and we all know you can talk."

 I chuckle because it's true. I shrug my shoulders and puase my music. "I've just been thinking about our time here. I'm going to miss it when we leave."