Crush, No, Crushed

Chapter 37

Two months since I updated :/ I left you with a real cliffhanger too!! I'm so sorry but the beginning of senior year is harder than I thought it was going to be. So no more excuses, my graduation is settled and I applied to colleges. All I have to worry about is school work now and possibly a job later but I have more time to write now. Originally I was just going to have one last long chapter where I could finally end the story because it's been over a year now, but I misread how much detail and information still is needed in the story so it was taking longer than expected to write the last bit. So I decided to upload what I have and finish the rest. This is like 13 pages on word so it's long enough to satisfy what I've missed in the last few months.

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            The rain didn’t stop Les from keeping his lips on mine. They were back on mine instantly, moving fluidly.  It was almost urgent the way he was kissing me, like it was his only chance.

            You would think that my mind would have gone blank, that all I was focused on was how soft his lips were and the tingly feeling that was running up my back but my mind was in a jumble. So many things were going on at once in my head and I couldn’t make sense of it.

            The first thing I thought was why? Why was he kissing me? Does he finally feel the same way about me or has he always felt this way and was afraid to show it for some reason? If so, why now?

            Then there was the worry of what would happen after we pulled away from each other. How awkward is it going to be? Is he going to be smiling? Will he be confused? Will he say that it was a mistake?

            I knew it was best to pull away now before things got too out of hand but I was scared of what was going to happen. Not to mention Les is a really good kisser, so I didn’t want to stop just yet. Nevertheless, I was overwhelmed and didn’t know what to do.  So tightening my eyes, I took my lips off of Les’ and stood up in one swift motion. Without looking at him, afraid to see his reaction I quickly sputtered out, “I have no idea what just happened but before I explode from confusion, I should go.”

            “Ru-“ Les started in what seemed like a pained voice.

            “No, Les. I need to think.” I admitted dejectedly.

            Before he could say anything, I turned and started walking back to the hotel. Les didn’t call after me nor follow me. And yes, that did make my heart drop a smidge.

            I couldn’t believe what had happened. After everything that went on between us, I thought that possibility was over. I had totally given up on ever hoping Les could feel more than just friendship towards me. I had no idea what to make of what happened. I had no idea what Les’ feelings were to make him do that. Though, I did know was that the only way to understand what possessed him to do that was to talk to him, but it felt like it was too soon. I didn’t want to face the truth of it yet. Especially when I didn’t know what to feel…